I'm being irrational, and on the verge of clinical insanity. What had I been thinking? I can't manage to bear all of this on my own.
In the laws eyes I may be an adult, but to me, I'm still just a scared kid who cowers behind her overachieving brother. I was an idiot to think I could keep this to myself, to try and smooth it all over without the help of my support system.
My fingers grip the steering wheel tighter and tighter, barely having the courage to pull into the driveway with all my badgering thoughts. I throw the gearshift into park, sniffling while sitting up straighter to look in the rearview mirror.
There's already a prominent ring of purple blossoming around my eye. Can't wait to explain that one. Do I just say I ran into a door? My clumsy self tripped over a crack in the sidewalk and fell on a rock? All of those could be believable since I didn't want to divulge what I just experienced at Jaxx's.
When I leave the safe bubble of my car, I find myself sitting on the front porch brick steps, not ready to face my family.
"What's going on in there?" Jordan places himself down next to me, jutting his finger towards my head that feels like it could explode.
"My parents are going to have questions about this..." I gesture towards my sore eye, subconsciously wondering what's going on inside with my parents being in the same house.
Who knew there could be such an angel that came in the form of my father? He's been so selfless to comfort my mother in the loss of her unborn child that wasn't his. My dad has been the one to teach me the ways of a genuine and pure lifestyle, he's my hero. Which is why I can't go on with this lie any longer...
"You can tell them the truth, you know. It won't be so bad if they knew you were just trying to break up a fight." He gazes at my bruise, wincing inwardly.
Over a fight that seemed a lot deeper than I first thought. I was psyching myself out over the details, over the things I didn't know. All I knew was that Oscar and Jaxx have some sort of murderous hostility that formed within a couple of hours. It was confusing to say the least, since they were chummy with each other last night.
I have to remind myself that it isn't my business, that I have bigger things to worry about.
And if I don't tell all of them tonight, I'll back out like a wimp.
"Can you text Eli for me and tell him that I need him here? My phones dead, but please let him know it's not an emergency." I knew if we left that part out he'd race over here in a heartbeat, and that made me smile at his amount of concern for me.
Jordan squeezes my shoulder with a nod. "Of course."
I gaze over his shoulder as he shoots him a vague text that I'm sure will have his mind reeling, but I needed him here too. I've been lying to everyone I care about, and it's not fair.
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