Save Me

Abyss Of Ruination

Where does Sana go, what happens to Sana, is she alright, is there anyone who hurt her? The flash of torment and suffering memories that Sana received in high school made Jimin's head hurt because he worried her, but he can't do anything. If only he could use the money that his parents give, Jimin would definitely fly to Korea to check Sana's condition. But during this study, Jimin chose to get all of his effort and fruits with his own hand and sweat. Jimin got scholarship and live with the money he got from working part time in a book store. For him, using the money from that family to reach his goal to against the family would be a big fat lie. Jimin wanted to do that smartly and cleanly. And losing Sana's trace like this, really drove Jimin crazy.

To: Mine
Sweetheart, where are you right now? Are you alright? Please reply or pick my call to make sure that you're fine. I'm going crazy, baby...

Sent!

Jimin leaned back to the big pillar of that enormous old building. Staring at the maple trees with their falling leaves outside the enormous window. His thoughts were flying back to the years that he spent with Sana. The happiness also the pain that he never realized. Jimin was always regretting because he slipped out his sight and attention from the sorrow and torment that Sana got from Seulgi, other girls and the most important one, Yoongi. Jimin bit his lip hardly, holding the great pain inside his heart he recalled with Sana's empty stare the whole time after Yoongi gone. Realizing that, Jimin learned that Sana loves Yoongi. Even though Jimin has never seen the happiness in Sana's eyes when she mentioned Yoongi's name and he only saw pain, sorrow, and despair but Jimin caught it. His lover was already falling deeply and what she experienced, and also the fruits of the tragedy she got – getting pregnant, miscarriage, falling in love and losing Yoongi- were all his fault. Jimin's chest was always tightening full of guilty.

If falling in love with Sana is the miracle that finally came to his life, Jimin realized that it's also a disaster to his life. A disaster because he made the girl that he loves suffering. Sana didn't cry, didn't laugh and smile from the bottom of her heart. Her former self has already gone and it killed Jimin. Too much guilty. Even though Jimin felt hurt because his lover betrayed him but everything started from his fault, his ignorance who didn't realize the condition, didn't know anything. Sana was destroyed, damaged, ruined were all because of him.

If only he didn't meet Sana that day –even though he didn't want to live where he never met Sana at all. Maybe Yoongi wouldn't suffering and tormented then punished Sana. And Sana would never stripped out Yoongi's feelings until she felt sympathy and fell in love with him. Then she lost Yoongi like this, killed herself, destroyed herself, destroyed her most honest feelings and emotions. If only everything won't ended like this. Yoongi wouldn't commit suicide, Sana wouldn't get all of her punishment, every torment from anyone.

One Jimin regret is he already brought this disaster to Sana's life. And what he should do to redeem his fault? Is it ok to keep living and dating Sana as if there's nothing happened? Is it ok if he kept being like this? Deceiving the truth that wrapping their relationship. That he knew, Sana was not happy. That Sana was faking her happiness when the truth is her heart already dead. Sana's tragedy, was a disaster to her, a disaster to him and also Yoongi, a disaster to three of them. And for Jimin, everything was his fault.

*Save Me*

"Where are we right now?"

Yoongi's hand was still holding Sana's hand tightly. Sana looked up to the taller figure beside her, smiled faintly but very gentle. Sending mystery that caused so many questions popped out in Yoongi's mind. But her warm stare and grip just calmed his heart.

"This is a special place, where I always strengthen my heart when Yoongi that we acknowledged before had gone,"Sana looked at the bunch of rose plants that decorated prettily on the ground, beside the roses there was two years cherry blossom tree that grew up healthily. The place where 'Yoongi' and the unborn fetus rest in peace under the roses that the petals already falling down covered the ground, hiding the small bump under them so Yoongi didn't realize that there's a bump under the roses.

"Baby, mommy is coming with your dad...your dad is still here, with your mommy. Mommy is happy Baby, don't be worry. I'm sorry because mommy should hide the fact about you from dad, mommy doesn't want to make him sad,"Sana prayed inside her heart.

Yoongi examined Sana who closed her eyes and focus with something inside her head. As if she was praying but her hand was still holding Yoongi's hand. Yoongi averted his gaze to the roses and small cherry blossom tree in front of them. He was pretty confused with the meaning of two plants on the small hill near the ocean. Maybe Sana found her peace here, that's the only thing that Yoongi could think.

"San, are you ok?"Yoongi spun Sana's body to face him. Both of his palms were cupping Sana's cheeks and stared at her with shady eyes. Sana looked into Yoongi's eyes with teary eyes.

"Yoongi-ah, I'm happy,"Sana said with trembling lips.

"I know,"Yoongi nodded.

"I love you,"

Yoongi nodded and now he welcomed Sana in his embrace. Yoongi caressed Sana's hair and kissed her crown, one of his hand was rubbing Sana's back, soothing her down. Sana couldn't stop crying because they could reunited again in front of the unborn baby. Her baby with Yoongi. Yoongi whispered I love you too in Sana's ear before he placed his hands on Sana's shoulder, took a proper look on her who was looking at him right now. Their eyes met and the next second Yoongi's lips were landed on Sana's nose bridge, trailing down to her lips, kissed her passionately. A drop of tear was wetting Sana's cheek when she felt Yoongi's full of love soft touch on her lips, in front of their baby. For a while, Sana was feeling her small 'family' reunited. For a while, Sana felt herself really complete.

***

It was the fourth day Tzuyu couldn't sleep because she worries Sana's presence. Taehyung couldn't sleep as well and started to search Sana all over the town. That day Taehyung only wanted to buy Velix's cigarette in supermarket when accidentally Taehyung dropped his already payed groceries. Taehyung couldn't close his mouth and his eyes widened, saw the figure who was passing by to the drink corner with a very familiar girl.

"Taehyungie, I know she is not happy...,"

Taehyung accepted the falling plastic bag without avert away his gaze when a kindhearted customer took his groceries and gathered them for Taehyung with confused eyes.

"At least I want to make the rest of her life become better than before that's why I'll fight for sure,"

With his trembling hand, Taehyung reached the plastic bag.

"Take care of her Taehyung. Until I comeback, I leave her under your sight,"

With heavy steps but forcefully, Taehyung approached both of the figures who caught his eyes.

"I beg you Taehyung, if I didn't forgive Sana and she cried...,"

Taehyung felt his heart was very heavy, tight, sadness wrapped his chest in every step he took to approach his target.

"Protect her, make her smile again. Because it's all my fault,"

Taehyung reached the shoulder of the smaller guy.

"You're right, I already entered the abyss of my ruination. I'm too late to regret,"

When his hand landed on the shoulder of that guy and the owner turned around, Taehyung's world seemed stop.

"Yoongi...,"

Was out from his mouth, Taehyung couldn't believe his eyes.

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Anyone miss me? Hehe. I'm sorry for not active enough because there's a lot things happened these past days I hope next week will be more peaceful.
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