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Yess i stil lyk u! How cud i not?! It was jst tht sumthin came
up, a family thng. Tell u later. Promise.
Luv Nikki xxx
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I sent the message, then turned off my phone. I didn't want to see what else he had to say, I was just going to wait until I met him later on. I stuffed my phone back nder my pillow and squeezed my eyes back shut.
When I finally felt up to it, I went downstairs. As soon as I saw my mom, I knew my dad was wrong. I couldn't tell her the truth now. She was rushing around, trying to act like my mom, but when I saw her eyes I knew she wasn't right. Her eyes were almost, well hollow, like she wasn't actually seeing anything in the real world. I will tell her later, I told myself.
Or maybe I wouldn't.
I mean, what you don't know can't hurt you, right?
At home it was so boring, I actually wish I had gone to school this morning. I would rather take whatever Amy and them had to give me, than stay in this depressing house. Rachel and Brandon were a little better, but they hardly spoke. To be honest I can't blame them though.
I just sat around, waiting. Waiting for 6:00 to come. To pass some time, I went up to my room and got ready for meeting Kurt. I didn't really need much makeup, after all I was just going to the park. My clothes weren't really anything special, (well to me they were, but not to anyone else) just some tiny denim shorts and a vest top.
I grabbed my phone from under my pillow and took a look, too see if I had any new messages. There was one, from Kurt, but I didn't want to read it. I wanted to talk to him face to face.
I picked a pair of flip-flops from my closet, stuffed my phone in my pocket, and walked down stairs.
My mom was sat on the sofa, and her eyes widened when she saw me.
"What are you wearing?" She asked me. "They are a little short."
"Mom, its just a pair of shorts, don't worry." I said, smiling.
"Well where are you going?" She wanted to know.
I took a deep breath, I could tell her the truth, or just make something up. Yes, make something up, I told myself. "I'm meeting my boyfriend in the park." I blurted out. As soon as I said it, my hand rushed to my mouth.
"Boyfriend?" My mom whispered, shaking her head.
"Mom, I'm fifteen! I'm growing up, okay?" I said, as I walked out of the door.
I felt so guilty, but it was better than lying to her.
I took a slow walk to the park, thinking things through in my head. I had so much to deal with right now, and I didn't know whether I was right in coming here to see Kurt.
This time he was waiting for me at the gate. I looked at his face, and all my worries from home were forgotten.
"Nikki." He whispered, whilst he hugged me.
"Hey Kurt, I'm so sorry about yesterday." I whispered back, and I actually meant it. I had ran away from him, without any explanation because I was scared of what people thought of me. And that was no excuse.
We walked hand in hand and sat down on the grass.
"So, why did you run away?" He asked me, as we sat together on the grass.
"Its.....Ummmm, it's complicated." I mumbled.
"Nikki, are you cheating on me?" He asked, his voice sounding a little upset. I sat up, straight, and looked him in the eye.
"Of course I'm not! You know I wouldn't do that!" I was pratically shreiking. He laughed, and shook his head.
"I knew you wouldn't, its just that you wouldn't tell me where you were, so I was thinking, you know..." He said.No, it's family stuff." I whispered, looking down at the blades of grass. I didn't really want to talk about it, but by the look in Kurt's eyes I was going to have to explain.
"What do you mean, family stuff?" He asked, his voice was calm but also curious.
"Well, my Auntie and Uncle, they were, in a car crash. So my cousins are staying over at my house, but my mom is like having a break down, and, and my dad doesn't live with us, so I don't kow what to do. And I've lied so many times to my mom......" I told him, as tears started falling from my eyes.
Kurt looked at me sympathetically, and rubbed my arms to sooth me.
"Wow, that must be hard on you." He whispered.
It was then that I realised that I had more important things to do, than be at the park with my boyfriend. My family needed me, and to be honest I needed them to.
"Kurt, I'm sorry, but I have to go home." I said, as I got up and started walking away.
"Nikki, wait! Don't do this to me again!" He shouted, but it was to late, I was all ready running.
But I didn't run back home to my mom.
I kept running and running. I was so out of breath after about twenty minutes, but I still kept going. To help myself, I started counting my foot falls. One, two, three. One, two, three.
I stopped when I reached the familiar red front door.
My dad's front doorI knocked on the door, and waited. My breathing was so heavy and my heart was beating so loud that I needed to sit down. I sat with my head between my knees, on the steps leading up to his house. My breathing was so loud that I didn't actually notice that the front door had opened. It was only when I heard my dad's voice, that I turned around.
"Angel, what are you doing here?" He asked.
I didn't answer him, I just hugged him, tight.
"I missed you dad." I sobbed into his chest.
"I missed you too." He whispered.
I hadn't visited my dad's house for a while. Since then he had got himself a new family.
"Baby cakes, this is Sarah, my new girlfriend. It was actually weird to think that my dad had got himself a girlfriend, but to be honest, I was happy for him. I missed him myself, but I had chosen to live with my mom, and being an only child, that left dad alone. So he needed someone to live with, and Sarah was actually quite nice.
We sat on the sofa talking for a while (we being me, dad and Sarah). I told them about my worries with mom, and everything about Rachel and Brandon, and even my wish to be popular. Sarah was so nice to me, and she said that my mom did need to let go a little, and let me grow up. My dad also promised to have a word with her, face to face! They hadn't spoken at all since the divorce, and I was glad that they finally would.
We were just talking about what I could do to help me mom, when the front door opened, and the most totally gorgeous boy walked in.
A boy I knew from school..................................
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