I Stumbled into the house after a night out of drinking. I had a few drinks... not enough to get rid of the thoughts of Chris and some other woman. I know I have to make a change... I just don't know where to start.
Setting the keys down, I went up to the room and plopped into bed. It was only one day and I've already fucked up. I turned on my phone and went to my messages. My mom had called. I planned on calling her back later in the morning. I got texts from Bey but I didn't answer them because I turned my phone off.
I didn't really want to ignore Beyoncé I just thought it was the right thing to do. When I say we've been through a lot we really have. I met her when I was in a tight spot in life. She was innocent... looked like she had her life together... and was pretty much just perfect-looking.
2 years ago...
I looked at my watch and walked home quickly thinking about Chris. He really didn't have the ability to go to work. He injured his leg and I had to pay off his medical bills.
Before I went home, I walked to a coffee shop. I looked at the woman as she was ordering her coffee before me. Her hair honey-ish with braids somewhat in it. I didn't realize I was actually analyzing her until she turned around and bumped into me.
"I-I'm sorry..." she said quickly.
"It's fine," I said plainly as she walked away and put her head down. She looked very beautiful and made shorts and just a t-shirt look good.
I got my coffee and went outside to see that woman sitting on a bench reading a book and smiling. Her teeth were surprisingly white. I went up to her and sat down.
"Hi, I just wanted to say that I forgive you for bunking into me..." I sounded stupid. Why did I say that?
"It's fine...um... I'm Beyoncé."
"I'm Onika...or you could call me Nicki."
"I think I like Onika better," she laughs. I didn't even know what was funny but it made me laugh too.
"Sooo, what book you reading?" I asked. She tilted her book and smiled.
"Um... I'm reading Everything, Everything. I like a good love story."
"What's that about."
"It's about this sick girl named Maddie, who like has some kind of medical condition where she can't go outside and is sick from like everything. She has to be cleaned and sanitized. She stays in the house with her nurse and Mom all the time. Then she meets with boy named Olly, and he's the next door neighbor... and that's how far I've gotten."
"Sounds like a good story."
"It really is, she said taking a sip of her coffee."
I thought of Chris and got up from the bench.
"I'm going to go home now... it was nice seeing. Can I get your number?"
"Oh I don't have a phone..." she says looking down.
"It's fine... I'll just meet you here tomorrow."
I laid down on my bed and smiled. First time I met her was like the last time I felt something. It felt like I could live again. Every time I would look in her eyes I saw life. She later moved in with us because of her issues with her family.
I heard a knock on my door and saw Beyoncé come in.
"Onika... I'm sorry I tried to stop you from drinking... I'm sorry... I just don't wanna lose you." She came over to me and laid on me and cried.
"I'm sorry, I mentioned your baby. I went over the line and I made you hurt." I rubbed her stomach and she groaned. I forgot about how it made her feel. She just wanted to be pregnant again... she wonders what would've happened if she had the baby... but...
"I just want you to stop..."
"It'll take time..."
"Promise me... you will stop one day and that if you ever feel the need to drink you'll come to me first and talk about why you need it." I sighed. I smiled as she worried for my safety. I rubbed her leg as she laid on my chest.
"I promise. My head kind of hurts still." As soon as I said that, she kissed my forehead and got up and went to the bathroom... only to hand me pills and a water bottle.
"Here you go." I took 2 pills and handed them back to her. She put them down and laid back on me.
"So... you and Caden huh?" I smirked.
" yeah, he makes me happy."
"Have y'all done it yet?" I said it with a hint of jealous but I don't think she noticed.
"No." It made me feel a bit relieved. I started to fall asleep and felt her hand around my stomach.
"I'm going to sleep. I don't feel like talking anymore."
"I guess I'll go back to my room."
"No... stay here and wake up with me in the morning."
"Why?" It's not like she's gonna get in trouble.
"I don't feel it's appropriate." I huffed.
"Okay," I said turning away from her and I watched her leave out the door.
I don't think I was falling for her... I just think I need comfort.
I finished this for y'all. Sorry for mistakes.
I will edit this later though.
What do you think of Onika and Bey meeting?
What do you think of their apologies?
What do you think of their relationship?
Will Onika keep it this time?