October '86
So'leil
"Ssssh Seveyn baby it's okay" I cooed to the baby as she was crying. It was three in the morning and I haven't been getting much sleep in the last few weeks. But still somehow it was all worth it. I finally have someone who can depend on me, someone who needs me, someone I needed, and someone I could give and that I knew would love me unconditionally. This wasn't for anyone else. This was mine. My baby Seveyn. "for once in my life I have someone who needs me. Someone I've needed for so long. For once in my life I have someone who pleased me, I'm not alone anymore. For once in my life this is mine you can't take it, as long as I know I've got love I can make it for once in my life I have somebody who needs me" I sang to precious girl. "Wow" I turned behind me to see De sitting up in bed watching me on the corner of the bed rocking my baby. "You could hear me singing" He shook his head. "Yeah, it sounded so raw, and pure and just filled with real emotions" "Well that's cause I have something I never really had before. I mean I had it but it slipped from my fingers with Tomika, but true unconditional love, like just a close tight knit family bond. She's apart of me and it's just so special because it's like from birth she puts her trust in you and depends on you to keep her safe and to protect her and love her, and it's like you instantly have someone who loves you back, no matter what you do" Tears dwelled in my eyes as I tried to hide the cracking in my voice to keep myself from crying and trying to hold my composure together. Donald gave me a hug being careful not to hurt the baby. "So'leil I'ma love you no matter what. I'm always gone be here. Shoot Peaches just sealing the deal here. You gone always be forever my lady. Through the good times and bad times I'ma always stay. And if you ever feel any different baby just come and talk to me." I wiped my tears smiling at this wonderful person put in my life that I now have a beautiful baby girl with. "Wait hold the fuck up. Did you just call my baby Peaches" "Yeah what's wrong with Peaches" He shrugged. "That's tacky as hell,sorry I woke you though I know you just got off and you only had a few hours of sleep before you have to go to school" I apologized. "It's all good baby, here gimme the baby I know you just as tired , hell maybe even more" He took Seveyn out of my arms and cooed to her. "So'leil what are you doing" "I'm trying to write a song, or finish it at least" I said writing on the notepad in front of me. "Oh hey I see you two are woke" Mama said standing in the door frame. "So'leil I need you and Seveyn ready in a few we need to go to her doctor's appointment today" She continued. "Oh yeah that is today. If the doctor says Seveyn is alright I might be able to put her in daycare and go back to school" "Oh no no baby the doctor isn't gonna clear the baby until she gets her one month shots " Mama explained. "I don't want my baby gettin no shots" I shook my head no. "Well that's the only way they gone let her go to daycare. I mean I can watch Seveyn during the day if you just want that. I wouldn't send my freshly born baby with no strangers but I know you need to get back into school so I can help you with that"Mama suggested. She did make a good point there and honestly though mama and I have our disagreements, I trust her to be around Seveyn more than anyone. I hugged her. "Thanks Mama Hailey. I really appreciate all that you've done for me" She hugged me back. "You're welcome child. Now come on let's get that baby clean and ready to see the doctor" She said grabbing Seveyn, allowing me to get ready for the day. "Don't forget after you come home from school today you're supposed to help me find out some stuff about this Eva woman" I said brushing my hair into a half up half down ponytail. "I mean are you sure this is what you really want" He asked grabbing his book bag off the floor in the corner of our room. "I just want to know who she is, and what this shit really means" I shrugged my shoulders. "Well then it's time to begin our investigation" He pecked my lips. "I'll see you after school" He left leaving me in the room alone. Lately I've been feeling a bit ancy about D. I don't know if I trust him as much as I used to. Honestly I feel my gut telling me he's not being honest about something, but I'll keep it to myself for right now.
Short I know, but bear with me school really do be kicking my ass. Excuse my ebonics.
