After all this time, Evan caused me to break.
Though, I thought it would be him.
The one who's name I dare not to speak.
After all, he is the reason why I look like this.
Why I'm ugly.
I remember it like it was yesterday.
My father was at work, and my mother and I baking cookies.
My mother went to get something out of the fridge, and I went to sit on the couch.
I realized first.
I smelt the smoke and something burning.
I didn't say anything to my mother, I just crept upstairs.
I can't explain how it felt when I realized that my room was on fire.
Form that moment on, everything went in a sort of slow motion.
Each time my heart pumped, it pumped adrenaline, fear, worry, and pain through my veins.
It was pulsating, taunting me. Telling me to do something. Anything.
But I didn't think anything through.
I knew he was in there; his memory to be exact. The locket I had made for myself was in there, and I refused to let it burn.
I would've happily died for that necklace. It had something I had valued, something I had lost.
I didn't know I would come out alive. I wasn't planning for what I'd do after. I expected to go in there and be engulfed by flames and join him.
But that's not what happened.
I screamed at the turmoil that was my room.
Tears were blurring my vision, making it even worse.
My clothes, my bags, my shoes, my books, my phone, my laptop, my TV, my bed.
Everything was consumed or about to be consumed by flames.
I stumbled into the fire as I searched frantically for the necklace.
I dodged blotches of fire, burning my face still.
After a few seconds of enduring pure heat, I thought to myself.
"It wasn't there."
It teared me up inside, it stabbed me, it murdered me.
I fell face down into nearby flames, ready to die without it.
All I could think then was, it doesn't matter if I have the necklace, because I'll get to meet him soon. Very soon.
I could barely hear the screams of my mother as things began to blur even more.
She dragged me out of the room, and that's when I went out cold.
After that, I woke up to warmth and comfort. I was confused.
The last thing I remembered as overbearing heat, and now I could sense that my atmosphere was different.
My eyes remained closed, as I was afraid of the bright light that I guessed would be present.
I didn't want to get up.
After what I could remember happened, I knew I had lost something extremely important.
I didn't want to wake and then be constantly reminded of what I had just previously lost.
I decided, for just a few moments more, I could be at peace and let sleep hold for me just a little longer.
I had worked up the courage to finally ask my mother. Once I had her permission, I would just have to ask dad for the money. I knew my mom would be ecstatic. She probably was devastated when my face became like this. Not because she was sad for me, but because she loved being the queen bee of the community and my face and her misfortune took her out of the rankings. She would feel comfort in the fact that one of her burdens would be removed and an asset would be added.
Her daughter with the fucked up face would become beautiful again.
Yes, if you haven't guessed by now, I've decided to get plastic surgery.
I feel like I deserve it. All the times I've persevered through what people have said and even done, the times where I felt like it wasn't worth it, the times where I felt like the people around me pitied me because I didn't meet society's standards.
Just for the record, I'm doing this to honor myself. To honor my body, to honor me. I have the right to be comfortable in my own skin, without the judgment of others. Though there will be the whisperers, they will still be there and they were always there. I won't deny those who come up to me, I'll be proud of the choice I made.
I want to be happy in my life, and my happiness won't come from other opinions or ratings of me, it'll come from my own appreciation.
Of course, as expected my mother said yes. She had a glint in her eyes of pure happiness. Before she could hug me and tell me how much she loved me, I ran upstairs into my room. I didn't want those hands to touch me, I don't know where they've been.
My dad is also willing to give me the money. He, however, was a little unsteady. I could tell from his voice. He asked me if I was sure about what I wanted to do, and I reassured him with a happy yes. I could hear him chuckling in the background static, and he said he would wire the money to my debit card. I told him thank you and that I loved him and hung up the call.
Now, all I have to do is go to a consultation, let the doctors figure out what they want to do, and then go in for surgery.
Ava's been missing for almost two weeks now.
I'm the only one that's worried, yet I'm the reason why.
Did I send her into depression or something?
I don't even have close to an idea.
I miss her.
I don't even care about the dare anymore, I just want to make sure Ava's okay.
I want to kiss her on the forehead and tell her I'm sorry for being a jackass and for being stupid and that I really do love her. I want to cuddle up in her comforters and lay on her couch and watch Disney movies. I want us to have another whip cream fight while in our underwear.
I just want my Ava back.
Yeah ik it's a sad chapter (at least I hope it was)
But just for the record, him is not Evan because this happened BEFORE she really got a chance to know Evan during his dare
Who is him you ask?
You'll find out but like a loooooooonnnnnnnnggggggg time after this
it is important to the story line and exactly why she ran back in for the locket
But if you just can't wait I'm willing to give out spoilers in pm so just ask...
if you are wondering why you got two chapters today, its because im entering the pearl awards for the cat. romance and i need atleast 10 chapters
i hope thats okay with you guys!
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