The Switch (ViceRylle)

22. Hakuna Matata (Part 2)

VICE's POV

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K: Wag ka naman magpahalata masyado?

V: Nakakainis ka naman e. Pati ba naman ikaw? 

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I never told anybody about my fears in life. Tao ako kaya normal lang na may katakutan ako, pero alam ko na tao din sila kaya normal din na di nila matanggap yung mga kinatatakutan ko at pagtawanan ako. And I don't want the feeling of being disliked kaya kahit na sino walang nakakaalam ng mga bagay na kinatatakutan ko.

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Takot akong mabasa ang buhok ko. Kaya nga ayoko ng mga water activities e. But don't get me wrong, I love swimming. Expert naman kasi ako magswimming ng di nababasa ang buhok. Takot din akong sumakay ng bangka. Ayoko kasi ng alon. Gusto ko yung nakaahon. Takot akong naiiwan mag-isa. Kaya most of the time, ako yung nag-iiwan, ako yung nag-wawalk out. Marami akong kinatatakutan. TAKOT AKONG MALAMAN NILA NA TAKOT AKO.

This is what I usually do sa tuwing natatakot ako. Sinusubukan kong punuin ang utak ko ng kung ano anong bagay. But I never win. Lamon na lamon ako palagi ng takot ko. Katulad kanina, inaasar ako nila Vhong, di na lang ako umimik kasi ayokong aminin. Nagtapang tapangan ako, pero buking din kasi di ko kaya. Buti na lang nanjan si......

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Then I felt a hand unto mine. Palm to palm. Fingers to fingers.

I know it's her.

And when I open my eyes, tama ako.

I saw an angel, ayy I saw Karylle smiling at me.

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I was astonished and I don't know how to react.

I just say thank you and smile crept on my lips.

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Buti na lang she butts in kasi parang ang awkward na.

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K: You know Vicey, instead of focusing on what scares you, why not look at it's beauty. Katulad dito, instead at looking at the water try to look at that.

She pointed on the side.

K: See the rocks there! Yung mga trees oh!

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Then, I knew, that was the first time that I felt I won over my fears. Ang sarap sa feeling na ang luwag ng dibdib ko. I feel so free! Suddenly I felt like enjoying what's happening now. Me, enjoying the view and feeling the moment while K, there sitting beside and holding my hands.

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We were like that the whole trip at sobrang naenjoy ko. Though may takot pa rin, pero mas namamayani yung tuwa.

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K: ANG GANDA NAMAN DITO!!! PERF!!

A: GOSH!! THIS IS SUPERB!!