Gratitude

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Thank you

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Anchan couldn't quite understand what she's feeling. Guilt, sadness, anger, frustration, those kind of feelings mixed together inside her. But somehow, she felt reassured, that whatever happens, everything would be fine because she knows Shuka is with her.
So with a final release of a heavy exhale, Anchan went inside her father's office with Shuka.
"Papa" she muttered
"What are you doing here Anju?" Her dad replied not even bothering to look at her because of the paperwork he's currently working on.
"I..." Anchan bit her lip, she was about to turn to Shuka who held her hand the entire time to just go and Shuka gripped her hand tighter as if saying "Continue"
"Papa" she said again more audible this time
"Im busy Anju, can this wait till I get home?" Her dad said, still busy with paperwork. 
"Till you get home?" Anju muttered, gripping Shuka's hand even tighter
"Since when was the last time you were ever home! When you actually went inside the house with the intention to actually stay there! You were never home! You left me there all alone! To the place you so call a home!" She shouted with all her might, ready to breakdown anytime soon. Shuka just continued to stand beside her, giving her constant reassurance.
"Anju. I said, Im busy" Her dad's voice turned into a deadly tone
"You're always busy! You never had time for me!! You never had time for any of us!! When will you ever learn that because of you being soooo busy you never paid attention to mama and me!! Did you even know that because of this damned work you so passionately do, Mama left us?!" There, she said it. Her trump card. For him to actually talk to her.

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Shuka never heard or met Anchan's mother before. She never seen her either and Anchan barely talks about her personal life. But to think, the reason is, is this, she had been rendered speechless. Anchan will tell her if she's ready but right now Anchan needs her to be on her side. So she will do just that.
"INAMI ANJU! DO NOT talk to me about why your mother left!" Anchan's father half shout echoed across the room
"Why?! Because you don't want to accept the fact that the very reason why your wife left and why your daughter hates you is because of your job?! Because you don't want to feel guilty and leave your job?!" Anchan retorted
"I have always adored you! I always looked up to you! Ever since mom left I thought she was the bad guy, I resented my own mother for leaving her family behind! But now, I can see why!" Anchan's tear sac was on the verge of breaking now, Shuka could only pat her in comfort. Anchan's dad however was also rendered speechless. He didn't budge nor did he say anything, he just sat there.
"I don't blame you though" Anchan smiled
"If you love your job so much that you're willing to lose your only daughter too then I guess this is goodbye" Anchan said, tears running down her face as she let go of Shuka's hand and went towards the door
"Shuka, let's go." Shuka could only follow

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Shuka didn't expect any of this. She thought everything would be fine. She thought Anchan's relationship with her dad would eventually be okay again but no, she was wrong. Waaaayy wrong. Now they're in the secret spot Shuka previously discovered. Anchan was still crying and Shuka just comforted her.
"Im sorry" Shuka whispered. Anchan look up and Shuka could see her red and puffy eyes which made her even guiltier.
"This isn't your fault. I finally got off what I really wanted to say so Im kinda relieved in some way" Shuka took her hand
"Im always here for you. Remember that." Shuka whispered while hugging Anchan
"I know, I know" Anchan hugged back
"Will you be okay? Do you want me to stay with you for a while?" Shuka asked in between the hug
"I'd appreciate it" Anchan whispered

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Shuka and Anchan was now in Anchan's apartment that the agency provided her. They were both in their pajamas and was ready to sleep and since there was only one bed, they both were on it since Anchan couldn't possibly let Shuka sleep on the floor.
Shuka hugged Anchan while they were lying down. Anchan hugged back of course, taking in the scent of Shuka.
"Shuka" Anchan said bumping her forehead with Shuka so that they'd both face each other.
"Yeah?" Shuka's tone was already sleepy as if any time she would fall asleep
"Im still scared of what might happen. Scared of what might happen in the future" Anchan said, now facing the ceiling and taking Shuka's hand in hers
"What will happen to us? I constantly think about that. About the problems we'll face. But I know with you by my side I can conquer them" Anchan turned, only to see Shuka fast asleep already. Anchan giggled at how prone to sleep she is and how cute she looks while sleeping. Anchan inched in closer to Shuka's ear and whispered
"What Im trying to say is, thank you for being with me. I love you Shuka. I really do." Anchan then kissed Shuka's cheek and also drifted to dreamland, not long after.

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A/N: Yeaaahh, Im so sorry for not updating yesterday. I actually wrote this a day before so I can publish it yesterday but it's been a bit hectic lately and I haven't had the chance to open my wattpad. Anyway, I do not know much about Anju's personal life (most of us dont) I don't know about the situation of her family. This is all created for fanfiction purposes, please do not be led into thinking Anju's mother actually left them, this is for dramatics into the fanfiction. This is not based on Anju's real life. Please be informed just in case someone will sue me for invading the privacy of an idol. That's all! And school is finally ending this 18th! Hopefully I'll be able to update more often. Also, my trip to Japan has been postponed, it's not gonna be next month but the month after that. I'll still be able to go to Numazu though. The question is, do you guys want me to do something like a travel blog? Like I'll update you guys on what I see there, of the sights I'll be able to see that's related to Aqours. Should I or should I not?

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