It was the second to last day before summer ended, and I'm just two more days I would be a senior.
I hadn't seen Jasper since he found my sleeping pill, but this time Alice didn't bombard me with messages.
After Jasper left that night I was as depressed as I was before, everything hurt to think of him, to think of the fight.
It felt like I had no emotions at certain times, like when Jasper left me that night he took them with him.
I saw Edward two days ago at the diner where he was with Bella, I know he read my mind, I wonder if he told Jasper what I was thinking.
I haven't really left my room too much, and it scares my dad. He wants me to see a doctor but I keep telling him I'm fine though I know I'm not, I just don't want to be fixed.
This is gonna sound like a cliche but it feels like the only person who can come close to fixing me is Jasper.
It was around 10 PM, and I was laying in my bed just kinda staring at the ceiling as my playlist played in the backround.
That's when I heard a loud jump and my window being opened, shocked my head shot up and I saw Jasper standing there.
"We need to talk." He stated sitting on the edge of the bed, he looked like he was conflicted.
"I'm listening." I stated, sitting up and leaning against the headboard. I was fiddling with my hands while he started to talk.
"That night, I handled things completely wrong." He admitted, while coming forward and reaching for my hand that I pulled back.
"And I love you, I will wait and I want to help you get better." He stated, reaching for my hand again, but this time I let him take hold of it, as he started rubbing circles around my knuckles.
"I'm afraid." I stated interlocking our fingers and squeezing his hand tightly in my own.
"Of me?" He questioned, looking up with a broken expression.
"Of my mind." I answered looking up into his golden eyes as tears started seeping out my blue ones.
"It scares me Jazz, it feels like I'm constantly being reminded of me not being good enough." I exclaimed, starting to sob, while Jasper came up and leant against the headboard next to me.
"Dont ever listen to it, you are more than enough. And I love you too much to let anything tell you you're not even your own mind." He expressed, while pulling me into his lap as I cried into his chest.
"It's all gonna be okay." Jasper soothed, as he ran his fingers through my hair.
"Does Alice know you came here?" I questioned looking at him with a small smile on my lips.
"She saw it the second I decided darlin." He stated chuckling, as he held my waist firmly against him.
"Was she happy?" I mumbled against his chest, a small smile playing on my lips.
"She was screaming so I would say yes." He laughed, before pulling the comforter over us.
"Clove?" He asked, causing my eyes to look up at him with a questioning look. I felt his arms around me tighten, and I knew something was coming.
"Can you please give me those pills? I just want to keep you safe." He asked, looking at me with the upmost worry.
I slowly, reluctantly nodded my head. I got out of his grip slowly before walking towards my new hiding place in my charger hole for my desk.
I took it out, grabbing the pills before walking towards him looking down at the pills. His hand was out and I rested them in his palm.
"Thank you." He stated, grabbing me and pulling me towards him, his chin resting on my head before kissing my forehead.
He put the pills in his jacket, he took off his shoes, before getting in the bed again and pulling me with him.
"You're staying with me tonight?" I asked looking up at him with hope.
"I'm not leaving your side darlin." He stated, as I layed my head on his chest and his arms wrapped around my waist.
I slowly felt my eyes get heavy, as Jasper's grip on my waist never ceased, and his free arm was playing with my fingers.
I then fell asleep in Jasper's arms and let me say that was the best sleep I had all summer.
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Stay - J. Hale.Fanfiction
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