Kai.

Trust and Trying

Some people's trust is more fragile than others.

Look, before you read this, I guarantee that some people will probably get a little offended. Here's a quote for you:

"The world isn't a wish-granting factory." In fact, it is the opposite. We work to build up hopes and dreams, and yet I have yet to meet a single peraon who is wholly satisfied with their life. The grass is always greener on the other side. Slim people often wish to put on a bit of weight, and be considered normal or average. Larger people often want to lose it. We are possessed with these ideas of 'Average' and 'Normal'.

Some people wish to break away from the norm. They wish to be the opposite of these values. I can't truthfully say I am not one of them. But we still believe in these words. Average is seen as mainstream. Mainstream is normal.

But the world isn't a wish-granting factory. There is no 'Normal'. Average is a term applied fo a group of people who probably don't stand out as much. But most likely, each has at least one secret. None of them are the same. Different hopes, wishes, fears, thoughts.

There is no average.

Which brings me on to trust. No one has the same amount of trust. Neither is the world painted in black and white. Sometimes you can't say you trust or don't trust someone. Before dawn are subtle shades of grey.

I personally do not trust many people. I don't think I trusted anyone fully since I started learning about the world.

You look at someone who wants to be the President. If they achieved that goal, someday they will probably sent some people off to their deaths. They will decieve and be decieved through their life, simply to get by. Everyone does, everyone has.

I'll be frank. I don't trust a lot of people. I may like you; but I won't trust you. You may be able to hurt me, you may even get that close. But I don't trust you as you may think.

I have been continually cheated, lied to and hurt. Everyone has at some point. But some people get over it better than others.

That brings me to my next point.

You have to try.

I may like you. You may be someone I enjoy talking to. But for the sake of everything you hold dear, you have to freaking try.

Try to hold a conversation. Try to understand. Try to at least look like you're not shitting me around.

But be honest. If you don't like me; tell me. If you have a problem with how I'm acting; tell me. Don't just bottle it inside to be let out to someone else.

That really pisses me off.