"She's absolutely mental, I swear" I sniffle, dabbing at my eyes with scrunched up tissue Luke had gotten for me a few minutes ago. "The fact that it's with him just tops it all off"
"You don't have to have anything to do with her" Luke reminds me and I nod.
"I know, it's just, it still just pisses me off so much. It seems like she wants people to talk shit about her. She does all this stupid stuff and she knows what reaction she's going to get, and I swear that's why she does stuff like this"
"Maybe she just wants the attention"
"God, it wouldn't surprise me. She'd always brag about everything, and after Joe went to jail she really used the whole 'I was abused, feel sorry for me' angle until everyone had heard it. I don't get it. I don't get her"
"I've never met her, and from all the things you've told me I can only count my blessings" Luke says and I laugh.
"Yeah, you're one of the lucky ones that hasn't had to experience her bullshit" I tell him and he chuckles, rubbing my arm softly. "God, she's so pretentious. She is exactly how you'd imagine her to be, with a permanently caked up face, and her hair always perfect. She's literally the poster boy for crazy assholes"
"You're nothing like her"
"Gee, I hope so" I say, sniffling once again. I can't believe I cried over this. I guess that after my no-tear streak broke, I kind of did too. "You know what she said to me that night when I had that fight with her? She told me that I'm just like my father. I have never been so angry at her before that"
"That's the biggest load of bullshit I've ever heard"
"Is it really, though? I mean, think about it. I get smashed when I'm pissed, and I punch things, my temper is almost as short as Chloe and I snap at everything. I'd never hit an innocent person, or sexually abuse them, but on the other side of things, I am pretty similar to him"
"No, don't even think that. He could never be even close to being compared with you. Sure, you get angry easily and you probably don't deal with it in the greatest way, but given all the shit you've been through, it's not that bad. You could be a lot worse" Luke tells me.
"I can't keep using my past as an excuse for the way I act. I'm rude because I'm rude, it has nothing to do with my parents. That's just how I am, and I've been trying to blame it on them for my entire life but it's just the way I react to things and I'm the only one that can change it. I can pin the blame on them all I want but it won't fix anything" I sigh, putting my head in my hands.
"You're getting better. You are, you're improving and all of us have noticed it"
"It's only because I want to be better for you. I need to be better so that I can feel like I actually deserve you" I whisper and he pulls my hands from my face before grabbing my chin so that I am looking at him.
"I don't ever want to hear you say that again. I don't want you to ever feel like you're not good enough for someone, especially not me, because you are so amazing and I'm so blessed to have you in my life. I couldn't ask for a greater girl to be able to call mine"
"God, you're amazing" I sigh, and I lean forward and kiss him. "Luke?"
"Did your parents really say that to you?" I ask and he nods. "That's horrible"
"Eh, it's not too bad. I got over it when I realised they were right"
"Babe, they couldn't be more wrong"
"Katie, come on, look at me. I'm a dropout, I sell instruments for a living, I can't even afford to go to university, and I am chasing a dream that's completely out of reach"
"Just because the whole world doesn't know your name, it doesn't mean you don't matter. Because you do. You've impacted the life of every single person you've ever met, especially me, okay and I don't know about it being out of reach. I mean, you guys are a very talented group of guys"
"You think so?"
"I know so" I smile, and he kisses my cheek.
"You know, I really don't think I did love Natasha" He says and I furrow my eyebrows at him.
"Why do you say that?"
"Well, I got over her pretty damn quickly. And when she told me about what she did, I was more angry at the fact that I was still with her, than about her cheating. Besides, I never felt like this with her" He says with a small smile.
"Like I do with you"
"Look, I understand if you don't feel the same way, I mean this is really early, but I've known you for 2 months now and I think that that's enough time to get to know someone enough to fall in love with them. You've had my attention since the day we met and you haven't lost it since. Every day makes me more certain of how I feel about you, and I know we're only young but I honestly don't care." My heart beat is rapid, and I wouldn't be surprised if he could hear it.
"I love you Katie, okay, I do. I love you so much that it scares me but it makes me so happy because you make me feel so amazing and you make waking up in the morning so much easier and it feels almost as good to wake up next to you as it does to wake up next to Calum" I laugh and he does too.
"You're so god damn beautiful and you're my girlfriend and you have no idea how perfect that feels for me to say. It's been an honour to fall in love with you Katie, and I still smile about the day I met you, and I thank Michael at least 3 times a day because I'm just so glad that that day happened. I love you, and I don't want you to feel pressured to say it back, and you don't need to say it back, god you could break up with me for being an obsessed freak if you wanted to, although I'd rather you didn't.
'I wouldn't even mind though, because I still got to go out with you and if that's not the greatest part of my life so far, I don't know what is. I mean, it would be amazing to be able to walk down the street and see you in a shop and be able to say 'I went out with her. Katie West dumped me', although I'd much rather walk down the street and see you in a shop and say 'That's my beautiful girlfriend Katie West, and I love her to death' because it's true. I only realised it over these last few days, and I've been scared as hell to tell you, but here I am and I'm rambling but I don't even care because I love you Katie West. I love everything about you. From head to toe, and finger to finger."
So, maybe I was wrong. Maybe two months is just enough time.
"I love you, Luke"
"You know, only we could go from making out, to screaming at each other and then to confessing our love for each other" He laughs and I laugh too because I'm so God damn happy it hurts.
"Are you going to kiss me yet?" I ask and he doesn't hesitate for a second before his lips are on mine and I finally believe that things are going to be okay. My mother can marry whoever the hell she wants, I don't care, because I have Luke and he loves me and I love him and I'm convinced that that's all I need.
"I love you" I say.
"I love you" He replies. I never knew how much of an impact 8 letters could have on the beating of my heart. "Yet another thing I'll never get sick of" He says against my lips and I hum in agreement. We pull away and sit in silence for a while, just staring at each other because there are so many words that don't even need to be said.
"Are we moving too fast?" I ask and he shrugs.
"I don't think it really matters" He shrugs, connecting our hands. "It's not like we only met a week ago. We've been through more together than most people go through in a life time, so I think that technically, we've known each other for far longer than 2 months"
"That made no sense" I laugh.
"I'm having a bit of a hard time thinking clearly right now"
"Maybe we are moving too fast" He says.
"Oh well, we're happy, aren't we?" He asks.
"We're happy" I nod and he smiles.
"I thought so"
"I can't believe you didn't know I play guitar. I literally have on in my room. In plain sight" I say, pointing to the guitar in the corner.
"I don't take that much notice of your room"
"You've stayed here, like, 20 times" I laugh and he shrugs.
"I have better things to look at"
"You're so cheesy"
"You love it"
"Of course I do" I giggle, kissing him once again. I used to despise giggling, I thought it was obnoxious, but Luke just brings out my inner school-girl. He makes me feel so alive, so happy, and just so full of hope that my downhill is over. I'm almost positive I've hit rock bottom at least 8 times in my life, and I used to pray that it would never happen again.
I guess my prayers have finally been answered and my tough times are over. It was time to start a new chapter in my life, and I'm so glad that Luke will be the one helping me write it.
"What are you thinking about?" He asks and I shrug.
"Are you picturing me naked?" He asks.
"Well, I am now"
"Do I look hot?"
"Of course you don't. Nice beer gut" I say, squeezing my eyes shut as if I was actually visualising it.
"Thanks, I grew it myself"
"You're a dork"
"A dork is a whale's penis"
"Do I even want to know how you know that?"
"Dictionaries can be fun if you use them correctly" He smirks and my loud laugh fills the room. "I like you better when you laugh at me than when you yell at me"
"Me, too" I nod, kissing his cheek.
"Shall we go see Chloe? She's probably wondering if we're still alive" Luke says.
"Sure" I smile.
"You're a poo head" He giggles and I roll my eyes. "No, but seriously"
"When are you ever serious?"
"I can be serious!"
"Prove it" I say, rolling my eyes and standing to my feet.
"Taxes, contracts, money money, building, business" He says and I laugh at him, holding my hand out to help him up. I pull him to his feet and he smiles at me, looking proud of himself.
"Why are you looking at me like that?" I ask.
"I like how I can make you laugh really hard" He says.
"You're not that funny, I just need to get out more" I say and he rolls his eyes, trailing behind me as I skip to my bedroom door.
"Knock Knock" He says.
"Katie!" He whines.
"Broccoli who?" I ask.
"Broccoli doesn't have a last name, silly"
"That's one of your worst ones yet" I say and he shrugs.
"What can I say, I'm a comical genius"
"We walk out to the kitchen where Chloe is setting the table.
"You guys all good?" She asks.
"Never been better" I smile.
"What's for dinner?" Luke asks and Chloe rolls her eyes. We all do that far too much.
"Lasagna. We're just waiting on Michael" Chloe says, putting a tray of the Italian food on the table.
"Nigga in da his house!" Someone yells from the doorway.
"That'd be him" Luke laughs, and he pulls out my chair for me. I smile at him and sit down.
"Hey Chlo" Michael smiles, kissing her on the lips quickly before taking a seat. "Mmm, lasagna!" Michael exclaims.
Chloe sits down too and Luke moves to sit but stops.
"Camp chair?" He asks, holding up the seat.
"I, uh, kinda broke that seat... I threw it at that wall over there and we couldn't be bothered to find a replacement..." I say and he laughs, shaking his head before sitting down, sinking slightly.
"Thanks for dinner, Chloe" I say and she smiles at me.
"Thank you Chloe" Luke and Michael say in unison and they look at each other in disbelief.
"Twins!" They say at the same time again.
"Stop copying me!" Michael yells.
"I'm sorry!" Luke yells back so I put a square of lasagna on his plate to shut him up. He pats my knee under the table and grins at me, crossing his eyes slightly.
"Wait on, Calum and Ashton are home alone" I point out.
"The house can't get any messier, it'll be fine" Michael says, waving his hand dismissively.
double banger woo! 2 updates in one day I'm on fire. explains why I'm so hot ayyyyyy lmao I'm kidding.
and before you say "oh they've only been dating for like 2 weeks" just shush bc they've known each other for two months and they damn well know each other pretty bloody well by now so stfu :-D
I KNOW IVE TALKED ABOUT THIS SONG IN THE LAST TWO CHAPTERS BUT IM GOING TO TALK ABOUT IT AGAIN IN THIS ONE TOO ANYWAY BECAUSE ITS SO BEAUTIFUL. OKAY NEVER BE IS JUST SO AMAZING I LOVE IT SO MUCH.
love you guys, xx