jack gilinsky ♡
i was leaving her apartment, her and sammys apartment, that makes me sick.
i've been in love with her for years, and i know we have something, something that's real, and i know what i had with madison, sure it was something, but not the something i have with lily, it will never compare.
when i kiss madison, i feel sparks, but when i kiss lily, i feel fireworks going off. i love her, i can't love anyone else but her and i really wish she'd see that.
i also really wish she'd see how crappy sammy treats her, i mean his whole life, anytime he'd have a girlfriend, me and lily would feel bad for the girl because he doesn't know how to treat a girl right, and now she's that girl.
he's not capable, i mean he's literally cheating on her and it makes me want to beat everything out of him, i just wish she'd she what i see but of course she doesn't.
and of course, she doesn't even want to see me, she hates me, i don't blame her, it's my fault, i mean i left for two years, i didn't even have to do this, but i did it and i ruined everything for us.
we both know that, right now, i'm walking into the apartment me and johnson share.
"hey, where'd ya go?" johnson asked.
"store" i shrugged him off
"bro, you need to get over her" he started.
but that was enough to make me mad.
"stop telling me what to do" i yelled and went to my bedroom.
i slammed the door, locking it behind me.
i sat there, and just went through me and lily's pictures, i sound like a teenage girl who just got dumped. but god, i'm in love with her and she was my bestfriend for so long and i hate to see her get hurt and i just don't want her to be hurt.
she goes to a dark place and last time, apparently she almost killed her self and i just don't want that to happen. i hate leaving her.
i could be with her right now but instead she's with sammy.
when that video uploaded of her and sammy baking cookies homemade, and they looked like a real couple.
i couldn't help but be jealous so i called sammy, i was so upset and mad, and he told me he was gonna get with her just to annoy me and i feel like that's the only reason he's with her now.
but god, i really hope not because she's happy and i don't want him ruining that.
my phone started ringing, i looked at the screen seeing zoeys name pop up.
we still talk sometimes, mostly about lily though.
i picked up. "hey" i said.
"so, did you tell her?" she asked me.
"no, she hates me, and she wouldn't believe me anyways." i said.
"jack, she would only believe it from you, her being with sammy such a terrible idea and is gonna ruin her when he tells her five years from now with their two kids" she said.
she's right but i can't tell her that i found sammy kissing another girl in his car.
she may not even believe me and she would be crushed either way.
"i can't zoey" i said.
"please, don't hurt her by not telling her."
"i'll try when she's not mad at me" i said.
"soon" she said.
"okay soon" i said and ended the call.
i pulled up lily's name on my phone.
jack: can i talk to you?
lillian: over text yes
jack: i'm sorry.
jack: can't we just go back to being bestfriends?
lillian: just friends?
jack: just friends. nothing more, i respect that you're with sammy and i'm okay with it
lillian: you don't have to be okay with it but you do have to respect it so thank you
jack: you don't hate me then?
lillian: could neverrr, gotta go but talk to you later
jack: goodnighti turned my phone off then realizing it's only six so i pulled my phone out again.
jack: not goodnight, talk to you later
then turned it off for good.
i walked into the kitchen.
"you good?" johnson asked.
"i'm good" i said. "sorry for yelling" i apologized.
"you're good" he said, "takeout?" he then asked.
"sounds good" i said and sat on the couch.
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my babygirl → jack gilinsky
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