• Bts Angst •

「 namjoon － 1 」

"Are you kidding me?!i made it so fvcking clear that you need to give us the mone--"he was cutted off by the bell

"Be thankful its class time...im not done with you"i sighed in relief as i quickly ran to my room

But unfortunately i have the same class with jimin

When i entered the room i went to my sit and sat down

"Hey y/n...why are you wearing a sweater?its pretty hot today"my classmates say

"Nothing"i smiled "oh okay"she smiled back

Suddenly i felt someone looking at me...when i looked around i was right

Jimin was looking at me...and suddenly his eyes landed on my wrist

I quickly hid my wrist...shit...

I think he almost saw it...

LUNCH
"y/n!!!"i was suddenly slapped by a girl

"YOU SLUT!WHY ARE YOU AROUND NAMJOON OPPA?!"

(a/n:Btw the word 'OPPA' makes me wanna throw up sometimes😂okay just ignore me😂)

"I dont even like him!"

"YOUR TALKING BACK NOW?!Get away from my namjoon oppa!or else ill be your worst nightmare!"

"Hes not even yours!and also your face is already a nightmare!"...

Oh shit...

Did i just say that out loud...

And because of what i said...i recieved a slap and a grip on the hair...

"Ow!please stop!stop it!"i shouted crying

"WHEN DID YOU EVEN STARTED TO TALK BACK B*TCH?!"she slapped me again

Seriously...

"YAH!stop it girls!"the students were whispering and some are quiet

I slapped the bitchstick back making her let go of my hair

GASP

"Oh mygod..."
"Woah woah"
"That is really unexpected..."
"THATS MY Y/N!"
"Gosh...girls this days"

And when i turned around...i saw namjoon looking at my wrist again...

"This is all of your fault...i didnt do anything wrong to you..."i cried and ran away

Im such an idiot...crying infront of them

I dont even care about school anymore

Good thing my alcoholic dad is not here...

I went to my room...crying...

I took my blade out and started cutting

It just...it just takes the pain im feeling right now when i cut my wrists...

I really want to die...

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AUTHOR'S POV
Weeks and weeks has passed...

The girl who slapped y/n was embarrassed of what she did....because many students started to call her names because many students know that y/n doesnt come around namjoon

Namjoon is always around y/n...

But when weeks has passed...

Y/n started to get pale...she started to get more skinny...

Many students can see those dark circles under her eyes...

She doesnt look good at all...

While namjoon...started to notice that too

A pool of guilt started to fill him up...but he chose to shrugged it off

Until one day...when they were bullying her...

They started to notice those bruises in her legs...and arms..and a cut on her cheek

But they know they didnt do that because they havent beaten her up for days

And finally...they noticed those fresh cuts on her wrist...

"What happened to you"namjoon muttered...

Everyday...y/n started to be lifeless...she looks like a zombie...

She looks like shes really done with her life

"Y/n i need to talk to you"

"Do you need money?i dont have any money so just beat me up..."even her voice is raspy

"Look we dont need your money...we just want to talk to you...properly"yoongi talked

"Your already talking"jungkook tried not to takle her to the ground

"What hapened to you?"namjoon asked "why do you care?i know theres a catch...do you want me to do something or what..."her voice was really low

Then suddenly namjoon pinned her to the wall

"S-stop it"y/n begged

"Why do you have these bruises and scars?!"namjoon finally shouted

"WHY DO YOU CARE?!WHY DO YOU GUYS CARE?!ALL YOU WANTED TO DO IS HURT SOMEONE WHO DIDNT EVEN HURTED YOU!

WHAT DID I DO WRONG TO DESERVE THIS?!*SNIFF*WHY WONT THEY JUST LEAVE ME ALONE?!WHY WONT YOU GUYS JUST LEAVE ME ALONE?!"she cried and slowly namjoon let her go

"Im so Fvcking hurt right now!but not just right now but everytime!why does this shit always happen to me?!why do i have to be the unlucky one?!

Why wont they just let me die if they dont want to see me anymore?!why cant i just die..."she cried her heart out...

"Why does this have to happen to me..."she sniffed as tears continued to fall

"I did my best...i tried my best...i tried not to mke everyone hate me...i tried my best to be happy...i tried to smile...i tried everything...but nothing...i did all my hard work...

I put efforts into them...every frown was hidden by a smile...every cries was hidden by laughs...

I tried to hide them...

I tried not to show any emotions...but they just wont let me hide them...

They just want to get out....

I just want to be happy for once...

No one saw my tears...
No one saw my pain...
No one saw my sorrow...
No one saw my efforts...
But everyone saw my mistakes..."

The boys was left quiet as y/n's eyes continued to bring more tears...

Y/n tried to wipe them off but they just wont stop flowing...

"Why do you guys hate me...why does everyone hate me..."she whispered as she close her eyes crying silently...

And finally she ran away...

Finally no one has to stop her from she wants...

Finally she gets what she wants...

Finally she will be happy again...

She went to a bridge...looking down at the river...

Finally...she smiled...because she knows...no one will stop her now

She knows...she will finally be free from her sorrows

And slowly...

She let her self fall to the cold water...

Letting her body sink deeper...as the water around her started to take over her

Now she got what she wanted...

She letted herself die in a river...