staying behind with you | bellarke

chapter 2

Clarke almost jumped, completely incredulous. Bellamy couldn't be alive, it was impossible.

But then she felt him squeezing her hand again.

''Bellamy?''

No response. Her head was messing with Clarke, she thought.

''Bellamy, if you're alive squeeze my hand.''

''Please Bellamy.''

''I know this is stupid. I'm here talking to a corpse.''

Clarke shook her head and got up, taking a last glance at him.

''You didn't die in vain, I promise. I will honor you.''

With this being said, Clarke started quickly walking away. She didn't know where to go or what to do, but she knew she couldn't be near him. It hurt too much.

Clarke stopped walking as soon as she heard a noise, like some sort of groan.

''Bellamy? ...Bellamy!''

She runs to him again, sitting down so she could look at him properly.

''Were you leaving without me, princess?''

Bellamy said with a wheezy voice, his eyes were closed and drops of sweat rolled down his face.

''You know I couldn't.''

Clarke let a sigh slip out of her mouth, that she didn't know she was holding until then. She felt happy that he didn't die and relieved that he would be with her, that he didn't die for her or in vain.

''You really scared me to death.''

''So we did it?''

''We almost didn't. We were so close..''

''I thought I was dead.''

Bellamy confessed, which Clarke replied to with a sad smile. She thought that too.

''But you're here. And now you must be a nightblood.''

''So the serum worked? I used four of them, I wasn't sure..''

''When I woke up I used more two, but I'm not sure if it will work either."

Bellamy hummed and Clarke didn't say anything else, so she could calmly study his face. Bellamy looked sick, his voice was still rough and he didn't open his eyes. She was worried this could be the last conversation he would ever have.

''Bellamy, I need to check if you're ok.''

Clarke opened one of the eyes with her fingers, and they were reddish. She did the same with the other. She, then, checked his pulse and soon she realizes she was caressing his face while touching his drops of sweat.

She shook her head.

''I think your body is still adapting to this atmosphere. Hopefully you'll last six years, by then the radiation will be gone.''

Clarke tried to joke, but the thought of losing him for real this time was too painful.

''Clarke,''

Bellamy tried the best to speak loudly.

''If I don't survive-''

''You will.''

She quickly interrupts him, not letting him finish.

''I won't let anything bad happen to you, Bellamy.''

''I used to say that to Octavia..''

They both weakly smile at each other.

Bellamy opens his eyes slowly, closing them right after.

''My eyes hurt a bit..''

''They're adapting, but I think you should have more serum. ..Stay here and I will try to find more, ok?''

As Clarke gets ready to get up, Bellamy reaches for her arm.

''Please don't leave me here.''

He was vulnerable and Clarke sighed, she hadn't seen him like this in a long time. She still couldn't believe how he had so many personalities, how he could be soft and tough and then vulnerable and probably torturing someone right away and seconds after he would be spoiling a close friend.

Bellamy still was a mystery to Clarke, but one thing she knew for sure. He never made her feel uncomfortable. She knew she was safe with him, because even injured he would probably put her life in front of his own.

''I swear I will be back. See it this way: if I don't go and try to make you survive a little bit longer, you will be the one leaving me.''

Clarke found two syringes but they were both broken, so most of the nightblood inside of it was on the floor. She kept searching, though.

Sure enough, Clarke added one syringe to the rest she had and approached Bellamy once again.

''I'm back,''

She whispered, while injecting all the serum she had in his skin.

''You're back,''

He repeated her words, as they shared an intense eye contact. He softly smiled at her.

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