his smile // na jaemin

-twenty two-스물둘-

i then rung the doorbell

we waited for awhile

while we were waiting,

i realized

he was looking at me

smiling

his eyes were smiling too

they were sparkling

he looked happy

I felt guilty

I wanted him to keep me happy like this

But i realized

I might only just bring him to sadness too

What if?

what if i just make him sad too

and his eyes wouldn't sparkle anymore?

i wouldn't want that

but then again

he's distracting me from my pain

he's helping me become happy again

he's filling up the hole Jaemin made in my heart