Fear

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Louis' POV

I and Harry walked down the street in hand in hand as our school was over and it was a hectic day for us. Projects, assignments, exams, homework and many more activities. Our school is also organising an event as it is our last year in school and the works are totally terrible.

Harry insisted to walk with me to my home as I got injured in my leg and palms from playing basketball. I said it was nothing but he didn't listen to me. As always. We both reached my home as Harry shot me another glare with full of love and concern.

"Take care of yourself Boo, yeah?" I pushed away some curls which were on his forehead and nodded with a smile. He leaned forward and kissed my forehead sweetly. It was just a simple gesture but it made my heart fill with warmth.

He was about to leave but I grabbed his wrist and stopped him. He gave me a confused look as I glanced both the sides of the road. I slowly leaned and pecked his lips. I pulled back and saw Harry having his beautiful smile on his lovely face as he looked away demurely.

We once again said our goodbye's and I saw Harry went away. I turned back to my home and went inside with a big goofy smile on my face.

"Hey." A bold voice came as I turned and saw my dad standing with a small bundle of papers in his hand.

"Hi, dad!" I said nervously. I don't know why but this doesn't feel good. It's like something's gonna happen. He just nodded at me with a look and went to his room.

I just shrugged it off and made my way to the kitchen.

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It's been one week and in my family nothing is normal. Mainly it's between me and my dad. He will give me a look as if I am a murderer or something. It scares the hell out of me and now we have a family dinner.

It should be fine but I don't think it will be. I just want to go to Harry's and cuddle him all night.

"Louis dear! Dinner is ready!" Mom called me. I sighed and made my way to the table and saw my dad and sisters already sitting and laughing. As soon as I came into the frame my dad, as usual, gave me a look. I sat beside Lottie and suddenly everything became awkward.

We all started eating but I couldn't concentrate on eating. My mind is full of thought but what they actually mean?

"So Louis..." Dad started as I looked at him startled. "Do you have any girlfriend?"

This was the question I desperately don't want anyone to ask me. It's not I'm not proud of my boyfriend, I'm just afraid to come out to the people yet.

"Um.." I started but I don't know what to say. I looked at Lottie who was giving me a smirk as she knows about me and Harry.

"No."

"Yeah, dad. He doesn't have a girlfriend! My poor brother." Lottie commented. Mom told Lottie to eat her food and not to disturb me but dad was not like that. It's like he knows everything.

After dinner, I helped my mom to wash the dishes and went out. My dad was standing there in the corner. I ignored him and was about to go out.

"About earlier, should I ask you, do you have a 'boyfriend'?" Dad's voice was clearly terrifying. My breathing became heavier. How does he know? He shouldn't know!

"What are you talking about?" I tried to play chill but that didn't work out. His eyes became dark and furious.

"Do you think I didn't see you fucking kiss that curly lad you call as your best friend?" Dad asked me out of pure disgust and hate. I didn't know what to say and I didn't look him in his eyes cause it becomes worse than it already is.

Suddenly dad's phone went off as I sighed in relief. He went to take that call with a glare but I just stood there. I can't move, I was feeling nothing but weakness. What will I tell Harry now? I can't just leave him. I can't leave my family either. My dad will do anything to keep me away from Harry.

He came back and slammed me against the wall. His eyes and actions were so dark.

"You are so damn lucky. I have to go to office trip right now or else I would have taught you a good lesson or maybe I would have done the same thing to your little boyfriend!" He threatened and went.

I can't do this anymore. I have to see Harry. So I went to his house without saying it to anyone. Within a few minutes, I'm here, in front of his house. Then there was a second thought of not disturbing him but I would go insane if I was alone.

I went inside without knocking cause that's what Anne said to me whenever I go to their place. I slowly made my way to the kitchen as I heard a familiar laughing and saw Anne and Harry laughing as they were cleaning.

"Oh, Louis dear!" Anne said as she noticed me. Harry gave me a lovely smile and I tried to give him back but I couldn't do it as his face turned into a frown.

"What is it, dearie? You never come to home this late. What happened?" Anne asked as she caressed my cheek. Shit, what should I tell now?

"Actually, I called him to a sleepover," Harry answered instead of me. I gave him a thankful look.

"I can take care of things. You boys can go." Anne said as Harry kissed her cheek and pulled me to his room.

"Is everything alright at home, Boo?" Harry asked placing his hand on my cheek. I leaned to his touch and hugged him. He wrapped his arms around me protectively.

"It never was home, Haz. I'm afraid cause I don't belong there." I mumbled. He pulled away and kissed my lips.

"Do you wanna know where you belong?" Harry asked. I nodded as he again pulled me inside his arms. "Here. In my arms. This is where you belong, Boo." I clutched onto him.

How can I say to him that my dad knows everything about us? How will I say that we will not be together? How will I say that I love him so much that it hurts to do this to him? Whatever happens the things between me and him was never fake. It is so beautiful and damn real.

Our love is like a lemon tea. When you take a sip for the first time you can feel the sweetness and love of it but as time goes you can only feel the bitterness and hate.

"Love will tear us apart.." My voice cracked and I laid down on my chest.

"But we'll find our way back to each other." Harry pulled me even closer.

"Somehow.." I looked up with hope in his eyes.

"Somewhere." He said.

"Far away from here." I hugged him tightly as if all the things are coming to an end.

"We can meet again and start it from the first," Harry said looking at me

"Yeah?"

"Yeah." He confirmed and kissed me softly but I didn't know this all would change soon. Change us soon.

"Harry?" I called out. "Sing to me please.." I saw a hesitant look on his face. "Please." I pressed as he sighed and nodded. He pecked my lips before starting the song.

"You never love yourself half as much as I love you
You will never treat yourself right darling but I want you to
If I let you know, I'm here for you
Maybe you will love yourself as I love you oh

I've just let these little things slip out of my mouth
Because it's you
Oh it's you
It's you they add up to
And I'm in love with you

I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth
But if it's true
It's you
It's you they add up to
I'm in love with Lou
And all your little things...."






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