You were unsure
which pain is worse.
The shock of what happened
or the ache for what
"What do you mean she's not your real mother?" Heaven asked confused. They were sitting in the same position as before. "It's really not that hard to understand , Heaven. I'm adopted." He answered lowering his head in shame. Yes. The Killian Black was ashamed of something. "It's not something to be ashamed about, Killian." Heaven put her hand on his shoulder to comfort him. The small gesture from her made his body relax. Just like old time when he was stressed from work, her touch would relieve all the stress in his body.
Her touch was magical to him.
"If you were in my place you would be ashamed too." He simply said. "Who said I'm not like you?" "You're not!" He spat. "Yes I am. I lost my parents too, I have no one except for Zachy." She explained calmly. "No. It's not the same." He shook his head. "Maybe your better than me-" "My real mother got raped and I was the result of that!" He cut her off shocking her to the core. Her eyes were wide and the hand that was on his shoulder came off. "W-what?" She stuttered not believing what he was saying.
"Yes. He got her pregnant with me! At first I didn't understand why she hated me so much, but then my older brother told me. He too hated me a lot, everyone hated me there. Hell I hated myself too and still do! She was married and had a kid, but then the fucking bastard who's my father destroyed her life. I don't blame her for hating me and giving me away." Tears were now running freely down his face. It broke Heaven's heart to see him like this. So broken and fragile. "I'm so sorry!" She whispered not knowing what else to say to make him feel better.
"Don't be. It's not your fault." He said wiping off his tears. "You've never seen her since you got adopted?" She asked hesitantly. "I did. I would always go to her house when I was supposed to go to school just to see a glimpse of her. I wouldn't show myself because I knew she wouldn't like it, but I would miss her so much." He said tears appearing again. "When did you stop doing that?" She asked. "Never. I never stopped, I still do it. I just want to make sure she's ok and healthy. Maybe sometimes put money on her doorstep. I want her happy." He said making Heaven's heart ache for him.
"You're such a good son. And an even better father." Heaven said wrapping her arms around him. She hugged him tightly not letting him go till he hugged her back. They stayed like this for a long time, both missing the warm embrace of each other. "I'm sorry for everything I've done, Heaven." He whispered in her ear making her gasp from the gesture. "I've already forgiven you." She whispered back.
"Mommy! Daddy!" A little voice broke their little affectionate moment with each other. Zachy was now standing in front of them looking very confused and tired at the same time. "Why did you wake up, my love?" Heaven asked him while untangling herself from Killian's embrace. "I don't know!" The little boy shrugged making his dad chuckle. The slightest thing Zachy does makes Killian laugh. "Can you sleep with me? Mommy Daddy, pwease!" He put on his sad puppy face which always made Heaven's heart melt and give in to whatever he wanted.
"Fine." Both said in sync. They looked at each other for a moment before getting up and walking to the room with Zachy ahead of them. Heaven thought that it was cute how Zachy wanted them to sleep together like a little family, but deep down she knew that this was never gonna happen. No matter what this was a few minutes ago, it won't change anything. They'll still be like before. Heaven and Killian who are only caring for their son. It's not like she didn't want to be with him. It's her biggest desire yet she doesn't want to get rejected again. She didn't want to be the reason why his image in Hollywood might get destroyed.
And she sure as hell didn't want anyone to know who she is. Being with Killian Black meant Heaven had to be exposed to his fans. She would be a public figure and she didn't want. She only hoped that no one would find out about him having a son. And by the he's acting it won't take to long until the public knows about his little secret. As they lied down in the bed and Zachy between them, Heaven waited for Zachy to fall asleep before asking Killian about what she was thinking.
"Goodnight, Mommy! Goodnight, Daddy!" He said before closing his eyes and drifting to sleep. It was only a matter of time before he finally was asleep. Heaven looked at the left side of the bed to see if Killian was asleep. But he wasn't. He was wide awake staring at a sleeping little Zachy. His lips were curled up in a soft smile, while hand held Zachy's little hand. She wanted to stare at them forever, but Killian's eyes caught hers and she was forced to ask him.
"What is it, Heaven?" He whispered softly not wanting to wake Zachy up. "I need to ask you something. Something important." She whispered. "Go ahead!" He said. "What will happen when the public finds out about Zachy?" She finally threw the question at him. Killian took a deep breath before deciding to answer. "I will make sure that they won't find out and if they somehow do, then I will say that I married a couple of years ago and kept it all private. You will have to be my wife if anything happens, Heaven! I hope you're ok with that." He said making Heaven's eyes widen.
"Y-your wife?" She asked again. "Yes, Heaven. My wife."
End of chapter 12
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