Random Writings and Drabbles ((Complete and Incomplete))

First three chapters of Can We Love?

"You okay? Both of you. I know that things have been happening around town but haven't been able to visit. Even this time I just slipped away... Gonna get in souch trouble for that. " I look at Mika and Eren.

"Eren wants to join the scouts like you Lunati. " Mika says, I could hear both worry and disappointment in her tone.

"I told you not to tell anyone, Mikasa! " Eren wines as we start to walk to the Jaeger residence.

"Eren please forget about joining the Scouts. Please, please forget about it Eren. " I look at him, my expression also pleading him. "I don't want you to have to go through what I have gone through... seen the things I have seen. Please, Eren I'm begging you to rethink this. I... I don't want you to understand the things I do. I don't want you to go through the mental pain. You don't fully understand the burden we take on. Though I know why you want to, you feel like cattle stuck in this wall just waiting for it to break... " I trailed off, not wanting to let them know what I think about humans and titans.

"See even Lu agrees with me Eren. " Mika seemed to be using me as support for what she has likely been saying since she found out. I meant what I said though, the Scouting legion messes with your head. As proved by Josie who will likely die next expedition or sadly someone will snap her out of her haze and she'll kill herself.

"You two don't even understand!! You're just as bad as everyone else!!" He had a look that said we betrayed him before he turned around and ran ahead of us. Though it was more directed at me then Mikasa, he trusted me to support him with this. No, I don't support anyone joining the scouts... it's not a place for any human. Not just Eren. Sighing I looked down at Mikasa.

"I wish Eren only knew. He wishes to join a world no one should have ever been in. " I'm not sure how I looked, likely just tired. I am tired, to be honest, tired of everything including living. Of this stupid battle mostly though.

"I wish he wasn't so stupid sometimes. " Mikasa said before running after him, leaving me alone. Finally having a moment alone I broke down. I let myself act like the little girl I am, not what everyone else sees.

"I'm sorry.. I'm so sorry. I'll go visit the Jaegers after this... Papa deserves to know this. " Wiping away my tears I turn around and go to visit my Father, he didn't even know I was gone until a month after and I was basically already adopted by the Jaegers then. So yay for his job. He would have been fine with my choice since his brother is part of the Scouts. When I told my batshit crazy mom she just kicked her almost 9-year-old daughter for even thinking it, then when Dr.Jaeger took me back she said she didn't have a daughter which ended up in an argument and me becoming their first adopted daughter. Mikasa soon to follow in a bit over a week when the cabin incident occurred. I was livid when I was told Eren and Mikasa took the blame for killing those three. I 'killed' two of them and the last one... well he was killed by Mikasa... I should have taken all the blame though. She wouldn't let me...

Shaking my head wildly for some reason my stomach drops, I don't like this one bit. As I wipe away the tears that replaced the previous ones, I also steel myself into the girl the world knows. Before taking off in a run my cape had to come off. With reluctance and hate, I do take it off then sprint. I hate going without it, makes me feel sick. Thankfully I arrived at my first home with a good time. Knocking three times it isn't my father who answers the door before my fourth knock, but rather my mother. Her face twists into this ugly look, almost like she is looking at something that is disgusting, even inferior to her. It arises some of my more violent thoughts about this woman, to my pleasure it seems time has done her wrong. That's called karma for throwing A NINE YEAR OLD out of the house FOR A THOUGHT!! A FUCKING THOUGHT.

Resisting the very strong urge to wipe that look off her face I bow my head down to her. "I'm Lunati Soguto, I bring some bad news for you and your husband. May I please meet with him so I may tell you both at once. " The words leave a foul taste in my mouth. Bringing my head to its normal resting position, I'm even more disgusted to see this bitch fucking smirking, SMIRKING!! My hand shakes with both rage and unfulfilled thoughts, it would be so easy to kill this woman right now. I only have one reason for keeping her alive, no two at this point. The first is because of father, who for some reason loves this slut. The second is because he will need someone to comfort him after I tell him the news. And that person could never be me. It never was.