Random Writings and Drabbles ((Complete and Incomplete))

First three chapters of Can We Love?

//Soo finished season one of Attack On Titan and had this fanfiction I wrote a long time ago my sister loved. I figured why not rewrite the first three chappys. Soo this is gonna look a bit weird, when It switches chapters I think I may put a picture or song that suites said chapter. Now, this is going to seem really weird just keep one thing in mind, this is gonna contradict itself a lot. Also note that I got busy when writing this so it may have a sudden change in style or sumthin'

Chappy One

Death, this is the only thing around me. It's not out of the odd anymore though, it's something I've somehow gotten used to in the past few years. Then again it was something I had seen since a young age, heard about, even murdered someone myself. My ideas questioned something though, something only very few would question. Are we humans any better than titans? Sure titans are humans, the bitter enemy, eating us and all. That is the only thing they do, eat us, humans. We, humans, kill each other, eat each other, take advantage of each other, torture one another, and so much more. So honestly who is worse, titans or humans? At least this is the question I've wondered about for so long, at the end of that expedition I found the answer I believe is true though. That expedition is the one that ended the day Shiganshina, the day so many people lost their lives and the Garrison didn't do shit to help out those poor, innocent souls. That day that showed us Humanity is simply cattle that can't defend itself, that it is weak since only a handful decided to learn how to defend themselves and not let those skills go to waste. That day Wall Maria fell was a reminder of the titan's power, of the utter control they have over us. It was the day humanity's fear of titans returned in an instant, the day we were reminded of the fear of them controlling us. So, that day, I found the answer.... neither titans or humans are the greater evil. Both do the same thing in the long run, one way will just take much longer and have more suffering. Just as Mikasa has said to me alone, this world is beautiful but cruel. Beautiful in the way it looks, at least it's outer appearance. Once you look a bit closer you see how it isn't beautiful, it is one in where only the strong and victorious can live. Lose one battle and you may very well end up as a memory, or worse. Just what played out that day? I'm glad you asked, well I could see the question in your eyes. It went along the lines of this...

That day was the last of our expedition outside the walls, yet again many people had died before then. I would say over a fourth of our already limited group had suffered death at the expense of nothing. We would claim that the death of those people helped to further humanity's knowledge of titans, to help us get closer to our ultimate goal of killing out all titans. I mean who wouldn't want to do that, save what is supposedly all of humanity. Actually, a lot of people wouldn't want to, as proved by our small group of people here at the moment.IN truth we are just a small island nation that has this problem. I also know what may happen to Eren, I will never admit it aloud but I know more about titans than this part of humanity. They would call me crazy if I told them though. Well, I am crazy in my own way through. No one but Eren and Mikasa has ever seen more than maybe a glimpse of it though, they have only seen the very shallow part of it as well. These are most of the things I dwell and ponder on as we ride back, not really having a titan problem which is something I'm thankful for since I'm always told not to attack them. I'm the youngest here, after all, turning 13 in two days. I'm only here because of my Uncle as well. Shaking my head I close my eyes and listen to the sound of running horses. Soon after it starts to rain, it making my mind go blank for a while before I started to think of the beauty of it all. The feeling if it hitting your face and soaking your clothes. Before I know it I'm pulled out of my trance induced by rain by Levi yelling at me to come out of it. I'll have him know I liked my trance, focusing on something we humans cannot taint. With a shake of my head I forced myself to ignore the rain I spot a faint black smoke signal, Erwin must have been moving the formation based on that. Though I would prefer that we just deal with the stupid thing he leads us away from it. It would be quicker after all. Not to mention we had the advantage since we were not out of the plains and into the woods. In the back of my mind, I knew Erwin knows this, he's just avoiding casualty.