"... so, I'm trying this new thing. I refuse to proactively do anything. They've got to contact me. If a man wants to see me, he needs to make all the arrangements. Thanks. Not too much! I'm also trying to cut down how much I drink."
John filled her glass anyway. He knew her of old. If he didn't pour the wine to the top, she'd only bug him in a few minutes' time, demanding more. And the sofa wrapped itself so well round his old, cold bones. He'd no desire to give up its embrace any time soon.
"How's it working out for you, the new thing?"
Really, this was unfair. When Lillian had arrived at their flat a few hours ago waving a bottle of Cava and desperate to talk about her love life, Kippy had promptly vanished. Oh, he was working on a painting, he claimed airily. Desperately sorry he couldn't hang about to listen.
Lillian might claim dibs on friendship with them both, but she and Kippy had been close at art school back in the early nineties. And she'd always shown huge interest in his life. The rules of friendship and fairness surely demanded he repaid the favour?
It wasn't so bad though. Lillian made dramatic pronouncements. And she was so dreadful at intimacy, tales of her love life were almost always comedic.
Tragi-comedic, John supposed. There ought to be someone out there who'd be the willing recipient of Lillian's considerable energy and intensity. Together, they'd be able to scream and shout at each other, and then make it up with mad, passionate sex. It was impossible to imagine Lillian in a relationship where a couple sat opposite each other in a restaurant and found they couldn't be bothered with conversation.
Lillian had two relationships with married men behind her. One was careless, two made it look like a pattern, Kippy always said. When the second one ended disastrously—he promised to leave his wife, did so then returned to her weeks later, managing to wreck her happiness and Lillian's in the process—Lillian turned to match dot com.
Her stories kept John and Kippy entertained for months. Her complaints were wide-ranging. Firstly, there were the unrepresentative photos. "Honestly!" Lillian exclaimed. "That picture was at least ten years out of date. All his hair's disappeared. Did he think I wouldn't notice?"
Then, there were the conversations that started up and suddenly petered out. "I thought we'd established a rapport," Lillian said. She showed them the emails. Back and forth, back and forth went witty exchanges. Lillian would mention something, and the man would fervently agree. And then, nothing.
The first time it happened, Lillian sent plaintive messages. "Is something wrong? What did I say?" After a while, she left it. Ghosted, they called it. It was nothing personal. Mister 'I've Got So Much in Common With You!' had been conducting such conversations with a few other folks. And he'd met one lassie and fallen for her.
That's what she told herself.
Lillian's first "new thing" she applied to her dating life was to meet people very quickly. No point in getting into these long email conversations. You had to see the person as soon as and work out if there was a) chemistry; and b) well, just chemistry. A shared liking for Placebo's songs played loudly on a Sunday morning mattered not a jot if you didn't fancy a dude.
Lillian took a gulp of wine, the liquid turning her teeth and tongue black the way it always did. John wondered if those men she dated noticed that and it put them off. He and Kippy were lucky, he supposed. The mysterious gene that made some people prone to the black staining effect of red wine didn't apply to them, even when they drank cheap shit.
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The Artist's History (18+) #WATTYS2018 LONGLISTRomance
Love. It's never as easy as the books and films make out, right? Lillian and Richie are about to embark on their first weekend together. She's always found relationships difficult, and he has a troubled past. Sex, getting to know each other and shar...