Apologies

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Im sorry

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For the entire afternoon, Anchan continued reading her book while their hands still intertwined. Till evening came and an unexpected visitor helped herself inside Anchan's house and her room.
"Were you holding hands the entire day?" A surprised Anchan dropped her book and looked up to see Yuki leaning on the side of the door.
"Okay first of all, how did you know where I live? Second, what are you doing here?" Not even bothering to hide her irritation, Anchan grabbed her book on the floor, still not letting go of Shuka's hand.
"First of all, the internet is pretty handy. Second of all, I got worried because Shuka's mother called in and asked where she was. Third, don't ask anymore questions I have something to tell you" Yuki's tone at the last part suddenly turned serious which cause Anchan to look at her first before saying
"Wait for me outside. I don't want to wake Shuka up" Yuki, with a grin then went outside leaving Anchan to stare at Shuka for a while. With all the world's hesitancy, Anchan kissed the back of Shuka's hand and let go before saying
"I'll be back soon" and went outside her room only to find Yuki sitting on the sofa.
"Talk" Anchan said now in front of Yuki while crossing her arms.
"Sit" Yuki retorted. Despite the frustrated sigh she released, Anchan sat on the sofa, opposite to Yuki's.
"Let me start by saying, I love Shuka more than anything" Anchan flinched at her boldness and was about to say something but Yuki continued
"But...she loves you so I can't do anything about it" Anchan gripped the sofa's arm not saying anything but instead, listening carefully.
"Listen, I know you're bummed because of our photoshoot lately. The intimacy, the proximity" Anchan with a raised eyebrow and crossed arms then replied
"Yeah, no chiz Sherlock" But Yuki just shrugged it off
"But believe me when I say, that was all me" Anchan's raised eyebrow still didn't go down.
"Shuka hesitated in everything I said. I told her we could change the positions but the director already liked it and we couldn't do anything about it..." Was what Yuki said, she bit her lower lip as if hesitant in continuing but continued anyway
"So..I told her to think that she was doing the photoshoot with you. Anju, those smiles you see in the photos, Shuka only managed to do it because she was thinking of you. Im not reason behind it, as much as it pains me to admit it. Shuka wouldn't look at anyone like that except for you, Anju. Shuka wouldn't dare look at anyone like that without thinking of you. And if you haven't seen Shuka look at you like that, it doesn't mean she's not. I've seen her look at you like you're her world Anju" Anchan bowed her head with widened eyes. All this time, she had it wrong. And she dared to break up with Shuka without even hearing her out. She dared made Shuka to run through the rain to get to her house just so she would listen to her side of the story but because she was selfish, so selfish, Shuka is now sick as if Shuka hadn't have enough with the emotional pain Anchan brought her already.
With a light pat on her shoulder by Yuki, Anchan looked up to a smiling Yuki
"I love Shuka Anju, if you don't want me to take her away from you, you better take care of her alright?" With one last sad smile Yuki gave Anchan, she then left leaving Anchan to take everything in and contemplate everything that happened so far. What was she thinking? She should've talked to Shuka but her emotions got the best of her. She should apologize but before that she'll do her absolute best to bring Shuka back to her original healthy self before apologizing! She'll understand if Shuka won't want her back, it'll hurt but she'll understand.
Anchan quickly got up and went inside her room only to find Shuka awake and leaning against the head of her bed.
"Hey, you feeling any better?" She asked and went to sit at the foot of the bed.
"Somehow. Thanks for taking care of me" Shuka said with the brightest smile her weak self could muster. Anchan merely hummed. An awkward silence wrapped the two girls who didn't dare look at each other, till Anchan made the first move.
"S-Shuka...Im sorry" Anchan muttered but Shuka heard and tilted her head before asking
"For what?"
"For everything" Anchan bowed her head, staring at her now balled hands.
"I wasn't the best partner for you. I didn't even ask how you felt. I didn't even know what you were up to. I didn't give you the chance to explain yet I already decided to break up with you. Im so sorry Shuka." Anchan's tear sacs couldn't hold it anymore, warm tears made their way down Anchan's cheeks and to her fists as she shook in frustration and guilt.
"Anju, look at me" Shuka's soft voice echoed in Anchan's ears as she did so, warm tears still making their way down her cheek.  Shuka's weak and warm hand caressed Anchan's cheek at the same time wiping her tears away.
"Im the one who should be sorry" Shuka said, her own tear sacs giving up on her.
"Shuka no, no, no, you didn't do anything wrong Shuka you didn't..." Anchan gripped Shuka's hand on her cheek and kept it in place while she was crying really hard now, that tears won't stop coming out.
"I didn't tell you what I was doing and what was going on with me and Yuki. It's my fault you're like this in the first place Anju. Would you ever forgive me?" Shuka's forehead met Anchan's, they were close enough to feel each other's hot breaths. Shuka's hand was still being gripped by Anchan on her cheek while their other hands were intertwined.
"Shuka...please...don't apologize.." Anchan said in between her sobs.
"I will..if you also stop..." Shuka countered.
They stayed like that for a few minutes and only parted their foreheads when they coped up enough to look at each other.
"Shuka, anata to issho ni mata koi ga hoshii" Anchan hugged Shuka which Shuka reciprocated before saying
"Watashi mo" Anchan then parted from Shuka and wiped her tears away while Shuka did the same. They both stared at each other before letting out laughs of joy that echoed across the silent room.
Anchan took Shuka hand and leaned closer
"Saito Shuka, with all my heart, I'll love you and I won't leave your side ever again" Shuka chuckled and did the same
"Inami Anju, no matter how possessive you get, I promise I'll always understand. Don't ever leave my side" Their faces were an inch closer when Anchan said
"I love you Shuka" Shuka smiled and replied
"I love you too Anju" before being kissed by Anchan which Shuka wholeheartedly returned.

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A/N: I got an announcement to make y'all!! Starting tomorrow I may not be able to update much due to school reasons (Yes, Im still in school ugh) But I'll try my best, so for now I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter! Enjoy the so-so illustration I made ;-;

I made an illustration based on the story I made aaaannndd the outlines of Zu-chan since he only gave me outlines -.- Zu-chan isn't with me and he usually does the drawing but I somehow managed ;-;

I couldn't make Shuka touch Anchan's cheek cause I absolutely suck at drawing hands ;-; Im soooorrry, I don't even know if I can continue this drawing or not ;-; I should probably just stick to coloring and hope that Zu-chan would come back early ;-;

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I couldn't make Shuka touch Anchan's cheek cause I absolutely suck at drawing hands ;-; Im soooorrry, I don't even know if I can continue this drawing or not ;-; I should probably just stick to coloring and hope that Zu-chan would come back early ;-;

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