Honestly, I've felt like utter crap today. I had a mini breakdown once I got home from school because I'm so freaking stressed with my school work? It's all my fault though because I find it so hard to get motivated and concentrate haha... whatever, enough about me and my bad day!
I haven't written a poem one shot thing in a while so I thought I'd give it a go?
TW: Depression, self harm and suicidal thoughts.
The sparkle in his eyes
It faded like day fading to night
But it didn't come back with the sun
No, it was gone for goodYet no one thought twice
Even as the marks on his arms moved to his thighs
His smile became a memory
Something that only appeared as a ghostHe isolated himself whilst wishing
Someone would ask to spend time with him
No one asked of course
Because he never said a wordIn class he'd be the one to stare
Into space, his mind barely there
He tapped on the tables
Unable to concentrateThe bags under his eyes got darker
As the hope in his heart got sparser
He was screaming for help
But no one could hearThat one person who stayed
Phil was his name
He was so close
Yet so out of reachEach night he'd cry
Why did he bother to try?
He didn't know
But Phil built up that hopeAs stress made him pull out his hair
The anxiety making him feel no one cared
He'd always lock himself in his room
Just listening to music and watching YouTubeWhat he used to love: books, TV
Became simply part of history
He wasn't himself
But still he didn't ask for helpThen one day
He had a strong desire to fade away
He had failed a test
Someone had called him a loner
He felt like a disappointment
He couldn't try anymoreHe was going to give up
But despite his bad luck
He decided to reach out
He picked up his phone and finally shoutHelp. It was so simple the word
Yet his fear was not being heard
But once it was out it was out
And Dan didn't ever want to take it backThe sun rose into the sky
And the hope eventually came back into his eyes
All because he had told his friend
Imagine what would have happened if he had decided to end it
It would have been a mistake
There wasn't a day
That went by without him telling himself
He shouldn't have felt the need to die to escapeBut the world is a tough place
You just need to wait it out and stay
One day I promise you
It will be okayWHAAAAAT DAN ISN'T BASED OFF OF ME I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT
NO BUT REALLY
ONLY THE BASIS OF HIM IS. I DON'T HAVE A PHIL TO HELP ME.
NO I AM NOT DEPRESSED THOUGH
JUST A LITTLE SAD
SORRY
JUST CLARIFYING THAT
AUTHOR IS OKAY
AUTHOR IS PERFECTLY FINE AND GETTING BY
I A M O K A Y
NO NEED TO WORRY ABOUT ME!
But like for real: are you all okay? If you need to talk, I'm always here! <3
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