why can't I just come back up from love?
this ardor that I still feel, it lingers.
it's been so long, so many days
yet I'm still so hung over them.
the storm inside of me,
just confuses who I am
and I try to swim through the currents,
only to be knocked back down by the waves.
I try to explain my heart to my mind,
as my heart is so keen on drowning
but my mind is set on swimming
and I am in a loop.
why can't I just rise back up
from their cold embrace
and fall into someone better
so this regret can chip away?
but I can't fall into someone better!
they're the one I fell for the most
they're the one I know the most.
they're the one I seek the most.
they're the one I desire to see the most.
they're the one I love...the most.
they're the only one I've ever loved
from my entire life,
it has always been them.
but now, I can no longer have what we had...
all because of me.