Kai.

The Beliefs

I've always nursed certain theories on why we are only born looking different, but we are different internally as well. We each react to different stimuli, the same occurrence can can an array of different outbursts, each unique in their own way.

Now, one thing I love about my household is once in a while, me and my dad will debate philosophy. Normally nothing major; my dad has a ridiculously scientific mind, and gets frustrated easily with how I can go on for hours in circles. It's a talent. Anyway, this gave me plenty of opportunities from a young age to consider questions like "Is there a deity out there?", "Why, if they exist, are they such an asshole as to let the humans screw up the planet?" Though not in so many words (Yes, I realized pretty young that I didn'f like humanity in general), and "What makes us different to each other?".

See, what bothered me was this. Two identical twins could grow up in the same environment, go around together in everything, and have the same friends; but in the end they turned out different, with different personalities entirely. Why? How?

So, I started to believe in souls. Not some heebie jeebie stuff, just the fact that we had an invisible life force in us, as all living things do. After a while, I realized I wasn't even agnostic anymore. I wasn't a theist; what I believed in matched no religion I had yet to come across. I didn't believe in any deity or god, though I did believe in Death and Destruction. Not really as deities, but the only thing that was constant. I was having a bad day.

After a long time, I finally formed my own... Belief. At the time, I had no idea it was similar to Hinduism in any way, though it actually was. Difference was, I didn't believe in Brahman. Far as I am concerned, any deity is a figment of the human imagination, fuelled by the desire for it to be true, for someone to blame for all your mistakes. All the things that happen in life. It isn't true, in my opinion. Your mistakes are your own. Your life happens as it happens. You only choose which path in which to go down.

See, the easiest way to explain it, is I believe each planet has its own... Life force, should I say. Kind of.

Each planet has a 'river', a 'well' from which the souls for that world come from. As a life is born, a soul departs this well, and joins with the body. When a person dies, their soul leaves the body to rejoin with the planet's life force. Think of it like the planet's blood. It can't survive without it.

Occasionally, a soul may depart for another planet's well, or river. I prefer to call it a river; it's constantly flowing. So, that's what I believe. We each have billions of possible paths we could take, or threads of our lives. Each tiny decision kills off all possible ones that could have been.

So in the end, we're all mass murderers, aren't we? Not really, but the though amuses me. We have no set 'destiny', but when our time comes, we die.