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Jaehyun's POV

I texted her to meet up with me, to fix everything before it's too late. It's now or never.

But I don't receive any reply to her. But still, I'm coming to our meeting place.

I know she'll come.

Hope so.

It's past noon, the sun shone brightly as ever. As I've reached the park, our meeting place, expectedly she's not there but I'm not afraid to wait. I'll wait whatever it takes lalo na kung siya ang hihintayin. Ang reyna ko. My Majesty.

I looked around and I see different people wearing a different kind of smiles. A loving smile, a victory smile, a little smile, a sleepy smile and a synchronized smile. Then I focused on myself and check the smile that I am wearing. A reminiscent smile. 

Inaalala ko yung mga oras na ilang beses niya akong pinotektahan, yung mga padali niyang punch lines sakin, yung pag aalaga niya at lalo na yung pag fa-fangirl niya sakin. That moment, I fall into silent and savour every memory.

We really need to be back together again. I can't imagine myself without seeing her smile, without her scent, without her voice, without her.

I check my watch and it's already past six. Wala na rin masyadong tao at kanina pa akong pinagtitnginan ng mga tao dito. May mga nakakakilala din sakin but no one tried to approach me. Siguro alam na din nila yung nangyari sakin, samin.

"Jaehyun."

I miss that voice calling my name.

Tumunghay ako at tumingin sa kanya. She's wearing a simple tee and a skinny jean with matching white sneakers. Simple but pretty.

"Sabi ko na nga ba pupunta ka," sabi ko and I smile a bit.

"Yes, pupunta ako. Pinaalis ko lang mga tao," sagot niya. Protective as always.

Niyakap ko siya. I miss her, really. I smile again, "Thank you!"

Inalis niya ang pagkakayakap sakin, "Anong gusto mong pag-usapan natin?" Nagulat ako sa pag bubukas niya ng topic na 'to. But then huminga ako ng malalim at saka siya sinagot.

I faced her, "Ibalik natin ang dati."

Nagulat siya sa sinabi ko, inalis niya ang pagkakatingin sakin. Hinawakan ko ang balikat niya.

"Alam kong nagkamali ako. Alam kong nasaktan kita. And I'm here to correct that."

My eyes became teary, "Please forgive me. Mahal na mahal kita, hindi ka mawala sa isip ko. Nandyan ka para sakin, when I'm down you're always there to cheer me up. I happy when I'm with you. I miss your voice kapag nag checheer ka sakin especially when you're saying the word 'I love you.' Please give me another chance."

"Look, I'm leaving. I have a good opportunity in Canada and I don't want to lose it. It's all about my future Jaehyun."

"Bakit? Hindi ba pwedeng isama mo ako sa future mo? Sasama ako sayo kung gusto mo. Please, wag naman ganito Abcde." I pleaded.

"Maganda ang future mo dito Jaehyun and I don't want you to lose it because of me," she sincerely said.

"How about long distance? Pwede nating subukan yun."

"No, Jaehyun. It's hard, kasi kung gaano kalayo tayo sa isa't isa ay gaano rin malalayo ang nararamdamin natin sa isa't isa. Sobrang laking risk nun and the greater the risk the relationship will eventually fail. Ayaw kong masaktan natin ulit ang isa't isa."

She bites her lower lip before as she continues, "I'm sorry. I'm moving on, it's been a 4 months Jaehyun. Nung mga panahong yun, hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko. Hindi ko alam kung paano ko ba pipigilan ang sarili kong mag fangirl sayo. Kung kaya ko ba talaga? Pero kinaya ko kasi ayaw ko ng paulit ulit na masaktan. Ok na ako, ayaw ko ng mag risk ulit. Ok sabihin nating ang exaggerated ko pero--"

Hindi ko na siya pinatapos sa sasabihin niya, "I can wait until you fully recovered. I will be by your side every step of the way. We can start all over again hanggang sa maghilom yang sakit."

"I'm afraid. I feared that when I fully recover, I might not feel that feeling for you anymore, that your waiting would be all in vain."

That moment, I saw that what she might be thinking about was not about healing, but about forgetting. That's maybe what drove her scared of such plan.

I want to tell her that, but I didn't tell her anyway. I don't want to make her feel like I am forcing up the idea unto her.

I feared I might end up hurting her once more.

My tears finally flow.

"Are you happy about your decision?" I asked her pero natigilan siya.

"Then do what makes you happy," I said. "That's your majesty's command."

She pauses for a second before she says the magic words.

"I'm sorry." 

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