It's late-night right now and Harry is still not back from wherever he went. From the morning the only thing I'm doing is crying, crying and crying. How can I just be myself when I know the reason behind the pain that Harry is going through is me. I caused him so much pain without realising. It's all my mistake. Every single thing I'm doing ends up wrongly.
I keep hurting people because of my stupid decisions. I proposed to Harry and I couldn't handle it, I thought of doing something right to my family and it ends up wrong, I'm carrying this fake relationship with Emily which isn't good at all and most of all by going away from Harry I gave him nothing but hurt and pain.
"I love you..." I said with all the love I had. Harry caressed my cheek.
"I love you too."
I buried my head in the pillow and screamed and cried. Everything happened that day was purely magical. I'm so pathetic to ruin everything I had. This cold bed doesn't feel right, nothing feels right. I want to be in his arms again, feel his lips on mine again and wanted to see his green eyes again.
My eyelids became heavy as I closed my eyes. I heard the doorknob twisted and someone entered my room, I slowly opened my eyes to see Harry coming and sitting on the bed with worried eyes.
"Harry..." I reached and hugged him. He shushed me and hugged me back tightly.
"I was so afraid..." I said without breaking the hug.
"I'm so sorry, Boo." He mumbled softly and pulled back. He wiped the tear stains with his thumb and kissed my forehead.
"I'm sorry that you have to go through so many things," I said in my rough voice. He let out a dry chuckle.
"It's not your fault, Louis," Harry said and brushed away the messy hair in my forehead and looked at me full of care.
"No.. You know it, Harry! It's all my fault. I-" Harry pressed his lips against mine and I kissed him back without wasting a second. My heart fluttered and butterflies filled my stomach. He pulled back and rested his forehead against mine.
"It's not your fault, Lou. You didn't know any of this would've happened. You did it because of your family.."
"Yeah, the stupidest decision I have ever made!" I said as more tears ran down my cheeks.
"You shouldn't cry this much." He wiped away the tears.
"After all this, how can you be like this, Harry? Like nothing happened?" I asked him. He looked away and didn't answer my question.
"I-I thought you would b-be happy without me and will forget me, eventually... I thought this was the best for you." I confessed. He shook his head while mumbling no continuously.
"You really thought I would be happy without you and will forget you..? And it was the best for me..? Shit, Lou, I'm not who I am without you. You're the person who loved me the way I am, you're the person who showed me the light and the darkness of this world and you're the missing piece of my broken heart. You make me complete, Lou. You're my everything and you mean so much to me..." Harry said with full of love in his eyes.
"I don't deserve you.."
"Cut that crap, Louis. You deserve all the happiness in this world and... I- " Harry paused and closed his eyes.
"I wanna show you how much you mean to me, Boo. I-I wanna make love to you..."
"Y-You wanna what...?" I shuttered.
"I wanna make love to you, Boo," Harry repeated looking deep into my eyes.
I looked at him and he wasn't joking, he was serious and I want this too. I didn't believe my voice so I nodded. His eyes sparkled in this dark room as he crashed his lips on mine and kissed me with full love which sent me a delicious shiver of excitement down my spine. I pulled him impossibly close to me. The kiss heated up and the innocence was long gone as he licked my bottom lip, asking me for an entrance. I moaned and he kept teasing me by not entering. He smirked and finally explored every inch of my mouth with his tongue. He pulled away after a few seconds, gasping for air.
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"Love will tear us apart.." Louis' voice cracked. He laid down on my chest. "But we'll find our way back to each other." I pulled him even more closer. "Somehow.." Louis looked up with hope in his eyes. "Somewhere." I said. "Far away from here." Lou...