I think I'm one of those people who constantly slips up once the going gets good. Or maybe I'm unlucky. Or maybe, maybe it's not me. No, I don't slip up that easily, but I do slip up occasionally. No, now that I think about it, I'm one of those people who's constantly trying too hard. Yeah, I try too hard at the simple stuff, like for example, pleasing people.
I'm not stupid, actually I'm smarter than I look. Well, I hope I'm not calling myself stupid-looking, but you get my drift. Yeah, I try too hard, and then I worry. I worry and things fall apart. Then again, maybe it's all because I'm trying to get people to understand me. Yeah, that's it. Understanding. Humans are inherently stupid. We'll never truly understand each other.
We live life thinking and living solely in the moment. Sometimes we're stuck in the past, and then we can't move forward. Then again, there's some of us who live only for the future. We're so focused on what's to come that we forget to live. I think I'm one of those people. But then again, one could say I'm stuck in the past. Or maybe I'm stuck in the present.
Either way, I was at a crossroad. I could move forward, and forget the past, or I could remember the past, and forget the future. I guess I grew up in the moment. I grew up preparing for the future, but I was still present. I was there. Either way, now I had to choose. Forget my past or remember it. Live or prepare.
I'm still making that decision. It takes a while. I guess this will allow me to describe everything just a little bit easier. I was stuck in a Rebellion that was quickly going nowhere, I was looking after a ten year old who seemed to no longer need me. I was having butterflies around my Beta, and I had no idea whether he felt the same. My friends were off doing whatever they were doing. Kallen was most likely obsessing over Xander with Celia, and Nerr was probably beating up some poor newbies, and Aaron had been shipped off to help Rebels in another Province.
The Rebellion had no use for me, or so I thought. The only thing I was doing was training, eating, and sleeping. I guess I would've been much happier had I known that the strange minds in the Rebellion were quickly coming up with something for me to do.
I was staring at the roof, wondering why I was doing anything. I'd counted the cracks and lines in it a thousand times, which was probably the number of times I'd thought that particular thought. I was bored beyond belief. "Aisu? Is there anything to do?" I asked, a sigh escaping me.
For a second Aisu's face turned beet red before he got a hold of himself. What on earth was he thinking? "You could always fight?" He said, the suggestion becoming a question as I frowned a bit. I shrugged and walked out the door, Aisu hot on my heels. I walked through several hallways, searching for Nerr. I guess what I wanted to do was pick a fight with her. Hail randomly summoned himself and began to interrogate me.
"How're your eyes?" He shot.
"Fine." I replied.
"Is one still colorblind?"
"Yes." I quickened my pace, seeking to outrun boredom. "Find Nerr. I need a source of entertainment." Hail huffed before he shifted Wolf and sniffed around before shooting forward. I frowned as he took several sharp turns before we came before a slightly scarring scene.
Okay, I guess it was overdue, but I didn't expect it quite so soon. A bloodied Nerr and Kallen were glaring at each other. Kallen stood in front of Xander, and Nerr was spewing curses in their direction. I sighed and walked up. "And what seems to be the problem here, ladies?" I said, stepping in between them. Nerr spat on the ground and glared harder.
"That idiot behind Kallen made a mistake. He insulted Lurri, then me, and then," She pointed to Lurri, "he decided to attack Lurri!" I glared at Kallen.
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The Sacrifice [Undergoing Editing]
RandomAt the age of ten, Sacrifices are selected to participate in an annual series of events called "Sacrifices" until they reach the age of twenty-six. For Snow, that isn't an option. Tired of the life she's living, she barely manages to escape after an...