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A week had passed by already but Lucille had still not given birth. The doctor said there was a delay but to keep a close watch on her for the next 3 days.

I haven't seen Yoongi.

We exchange text messages here and there.

That's all I get.

Stella and Barclay managed the business.

I got into medical school.

Mingyu and I had dinner the other night but it was all meaningless chatter.

I was starting to lose touch with myself.

I've hit a point in my life that I feel like I'm not moving forward nor am I moving back.

Time has stood still for me.

I sighed.

"Ms. Marie, what troubles you?" Barclay asked.

All I wanted to do was cry.

"Barclay...Have you ever felt like you're alone?" I asked trying to hold back the evident sadness that I felt within me.

"My lady. Is that what you're feeling?"

I nodded and felt a couple of tears stream down my face.

"I don't feel like I'm doing anything right. I don't know what I'm doing anymore but most of all I just feel empty and alone. I know I have you and Stella but I can't do this anymore. I can't just pretend that everything is okay with me and that I'm this strong person. I'm scared and I'm alone...Dad isn't here..."

I began to cry.

"Why do I feel like this? What's wrong with me?"

Barclay approached me and hugged me.

"It's okay to cry. You don't have to pretend that all is well..."

I hugged him back and cried.

"Ms. Marie, you're never alone. I will always be here when you need to talk and when you need a shoulder to cry on. I know things haven't been easy for you and the passing of your father has been a very difficult thing for you to grasp. I'm sorry I haven't been here for you as I should have been." He said to me.

"Barclay...Why do I feel so afraid...I feel like I'm losing touch with reality...with myself..." I said. "I feel so pathetic."

He pulled away from me and using his handkerchief wiped away my tears.

"You are not pathetic." He said.

"I don't know what I want anymore Barclay. I feel like I'm stuck and can't move forward nor backwards, I feel lost"

"Ms. Marie, this is what I want you to do. Take a break from everything for the next few days. Your semester of medical school doesn't start until 2 months. Don't worry about anything that needs to be done, there are others here to help you. We all love you and care about you. My duty is to make sure you're happy and content. Please just relax. Perhaps meet up with Master Yoongi, I know you've been longing to see him"

I sighed at the thought of Yoongi.

"He's too busy for me right now...Ever since...I don't know...Maybe things between us aren't going to work. Once I start school and his career takes off who knows what will happen. He barely has time for me now...Maybe it's time to accept that it was fun while it lasted."

"Ms. Marie surely you don't think that he has forgotten you"  He said.

"I'm going to visit father's grave and do some other things to pass the time. Call me if Lucille needs anything or it's an emergency" I said and went to grab my car keys.

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