All These Years

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Y/N POV

I smiled and waved at the girl she waved back with a smile and 'enjoy your day'. I exited the coffee shop and decided to walk to the building I had my photoshoot at. It was two blocks away. And I was super excited. I was early because I couldn't sleep and I wanted to make sure I get my great publicist a coffee too. I inhaled the fresh air then entered the building.

"A coffee for you my dear publicist." I said and she smiled thanking me. "Thanks." I got one for my PA of the day too. "What do you prefer ?" I asked Ally. "Umm. Late." She smiled and and I nodded. "Nice." I said and held up my hand for a high five. She gave me one giggling. "So Ally. I want you to enjoy today just as much as I do. Please." I said as I handed her the late and she smiled at me. "I'm sure I will." She said and I nodded smiling. She got called and I walked out down the hall that's when I ran into her.

The girl that till this day keeps me up at night. Makes me smile when I see her on billboards. Makes me laugh for no reason. The girl that can make my bad mood better any day. I haven't seen her in years. Billboards and the occasional appearances on the TV show was how I saw the girl. But she was no doubt always on my mind. She smiled at me.

"Y/n ?" She questioned and I winked and she laughed. "Oh my god hey." She pulled me into a welcoming hug then tightened her grip. I hugged her tightly. "Hey Ken." I smiled at her. "What are you doing here ?" She asked and that's when someone called her. "I have to go. Give your number to Ally, on a paper. I'll get it from her. It was great seeing you. I miss you Y/n/n." She hugged me tightly. And I let go and she waved at me with a smile. I jist looked at her in awe. Not my jaw wide open, but with an aching smile hidden behind a small smile.

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I've lost three relationships because they said, 'you are looking for someone else in my eyes, you're not going to find her'. 'You are in love with the thought of loving me'. 'How can I make you happy when someone else is your smile?' And all that is true words.
After the last relationship I decided to just cruise in the 'I'm single' ship. I was sat in front of my publicist and manager. "Y/n." My publicist waved her hand in front of me. "Yeah ?" I looked at her lost in thought. "You focusing ?" She asked and I sighed. "I am now." I said and she gave me an apologetic smile. "You're performing. Your tour is a go." My manager said and I looked at him in disbelief. "No way." I said in a whisper as if not wanting to wake myself from this dream. "Go pack kiddo." He said and I shot up from my seat. "Fuck yeah !" I yelled and then covered my mouth. "Sorry." I looked at him and he laughed. "It's okay." He said and I ran out to go pack.

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It was the end of my tour. My home town was my last pit stop. I've been around the world. It's been an amazing experience. The crowds, the people, the places. I'm glad to finish in my home town. I'm exhausted but luckily I had two days to like just sleep. I put my earpiece in as I walked to the platform that'll lift me to the stage. "Camila is here." She ran to me and hugged me. "Hey girl." She smiled at me. "Ready for this ?" I asked and she nodded. "I love performing with you." She said and I smiled at her as she got off and went around to where she was gonna enter. "LA. Good evening." I said and the platform started to rise. The crowd went wild.

I was singing and when I looked to the side front row seats I saw her. I froze but still managed to sing. Until Camila came and wrapped her arm around me pulling me to the other side. Saving my life. It was break time and I ran off and asked them to throw me with cold water, first I got weird looks then they did it. I swapped my shirt and then went back outside. "I wrote a new song. Right before tour started." I said and then sat on the chair the crowd went crazy. "But the song has a story." I started after they calmed down. "Most people might know I've had a few relationships. And it's a proven fact that you never stop loving your first love." For a moment she looked down. "I think most of us have had a secret crush. Admired someone secretly. Or had a first love. And at some point you think to yourself 'I'm going to marry this person'. And the heartbreaking part is when you lose them and they meet someone else that makes them happy. But worse is, you don't mind it because they're happy with that person. You get them out of your life but you're bound to run into them one day, and it all comes back to you. The feelings, the butterflies. That moment is heaven in hell. But what can we do... It's life." I said and the fans shouted. "Story." I sighed and thought for a moment.

-flashback-

"Hey babe." I hugged her from behind then handed her the flowers. "Baby." She smiled and I melted. Her smile, it's unexplainable. It means everything to me. I want to be her smile for the rest of my life. "I just wanted to say that I love you." I said pointing at the flowers. "That's so sweet. Here." She kissed me and fireworks doesn't explain the feeling. My insides melting and I felt at home. I smiled brightly at her. "After three years it still feels like the first time." I said and she giggled. That sound, it'll be the death of me. "Tue love doesn't die." She said hugging me. I smiled and held her.

-flashback-

"I was told that feelings that come back never went away." I said and adjusted the mic. I picked up my guitar and put it over my shoulder and started playing. "All these years." I said and took a deep breath. I chuckled and bowed my head. "Sorry." I looked to the side and saw Camila. She gave me a thumbs up with a smile. The crowd slowly started clapping to the beat my drummer gave them.

Your hair's grown a little longer
Your arms look a little stronger
Your eyes just as I remember (oh)
Your smile's just a little softer

And I, yeah, I never prepared for a moment like that
Yeah, in a second it all came back, it all came back

'Cause after all these years
I still feel everything when you are near
And it was just a quick "Hello," and you had to go
And you probably will never know
You're still the one I'm after all these years
(Oh yeah)

Couldn't help but overhear you
Sounds like you're happy with her
But does she kiss you like I kissed you?
Ooh, I wish I loved you like I miss you

And I, yeah, I never prepared for a moment like that
Yeah, suddenly, it all came back, it all came back

'Cause after all these years
I still feel everything when you are near
And it was just a quick "Hello," and you had to go
And you probably will never know
You're still the one I'm after all these years, oh
'Cause after all these years
I still feel everything when you are near (you are near)
And it was just a quick "Hello," and you had to go (ooh)
And you probably will never know (oh)
You're still the one I'm after all these years

I never told you, I should've told you
I never told you after all these years

Told you, I never told you (told you)
Told you, I never told you
I never told you after all these years

I wiped my tears and looked up she smiled sadly at me. I looked up at the crowd and stood up.

"Thanks for coming out tonight LA. You were an amazing crowd." I said and then walked off stage.

"Y/n. What's wrong ?" Camila asked and I looked at her. "After all these years. I still fucking love her like she's my wife... And here she is at my concert eating another girl's face. I can't go on like this." I said and hugged her. "Where are you going ?" She asked and I sighed. "My house." I said and she shook her head. "You can't have a huge tour then disappear." Camila said and I looked at her. "Estoy tratando de seguir mi corazón roto. No dónde está mi casa." I said and Camila sighed. "She can no longer be your home !" She said and I gritted my teeth. "¡ eres el que me dijo que el hogar está donde está el corazón !" I said and she sighed. "Where are you going ?" She asked and I looked down shrugging. "Casa en la playa." I said and she nodded. "Cuidate." She said hugging me. "Keep in touch." She added and I kissed her head and left. "Thanks for everything Cam. I really appreciate you." I said then left.

Hopefully getting out of here helps me.

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