I'm such a crappy brother.
I've been so focused on my own issues, that I haven't noticed that he needed me. He's in the hospital, attempted suicide. I talked to some of his friends, and they said that his girlfriend was cheating on him. This girl is a ninth grader who goes to our church and she is a lovely girl, Mitchell and her got along great. But then he found out she was cheating on him, and I went to the hospital, and he felt worthless.
AND I HAD NO FUCKING IDEA!!!!!
This is my baby brother. Whenever mom or father came home drunk or high, I would keep him in his room while I made sure that the parent would be okay.
I tried to protect him even when I was going through my suicidal thoughts.
My baby brother is in the hospital and I had NO IDEA WHAT HE WAS GOING THROUGH. I went through this, why couldn't I see my brother doing the same.
I should have done something. I should of talked to him more. I should have protected him better. I SHOULD HAVE HIDDEN MY FUCKING SLEEPING PILLS.
This is my fault.
It's my fault.
I could have lost my only brother and it's my fault.
I wasn't there.
I could have stopped him.
I should have stopped him.
GODDAMMIT LIFE PICK ON SOMEONE ELSES FAMILY.
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So this is the real me, not the me my family knows or my friends know. This is the me that has tried to take his life and regrets that it didn't work. I'm sorry my sister that you may read this and I'm sorry that I didn't tell you or mom and dad. O...