Sorry, I'm not For you
Sorry, I'm not Her
Sorry, I'm not PERFECT
Sorry, I'm not that good
Sorry, I'm not okay
Sorry, I exist
"You're not depressed,
you're just sad."
Yes. I'm just sad. Sad for 4 years. Sad for thinking about death almost everyday. Sad because I'm still alive.
But why do I deserve this? I've tried so hard, wishing I could do better. If only I could save her, he would be happy now. I was never meant to be with him. I trudged up the mountain, carrying a bouquet of flowers and a box.
I thank him for saving my life, the time when I tried to suicide. I also hate him for that. I miss him a lot, he's now with her. Nagisa is with her, in a better place together. I was never meant to be the one with you. To spend my whole life.
I looked into the box, thousands of letters addressed to somebody special, supposed to be for me... but was never as it was never sent and addressed to.
How are you today? The weather is really warm today. I hope to visit you soon!
Nagisa had these letters and when I read them I didn't know what to say. I found them everywhere around his apartment, the more letters I found it became even worse. I shouldn't be peeking at them because he hadn't given them to me. I suppose I was never supposed to receive them. They were neatly written, I had only recently discovered them.I felt betrayed as he didn't tell me, never sending me a letter.
I was tempted as the letter was not addressed to anybody, opening I begun to read it. Over whelmed with many emotions as I continued to read each letter.
My condition is getting worse, I have to go to the hospital soon. I know you're never going to receive these letters but I love you a lot. I many have a few months left.
I smiled at the letter, it was pretty sweet. I held the box as I walked up the mountain, I'm glad I was wearing a thick jumper. I felt sad, he didn't tell me the truth about his condition.
You'll never receive these letters so why am I even bothering to write this? I hope in the future you can read them somehow. Sorry for leaving you alone, I hope you can forgive me.
Arriving up the top of the mountain was two graves.
One for a boy, Nagisa Shiota, who passed away from an inevitable disease. The other was L/N Y/N, who was caught in an unfortunate accident. I placed the box and flowers in between the grave stone.
A tear slid down my cheek, it was never me who would stand by him.
I would never be as perfect as her.
I miss you a lot.
I know you won't come back, I'm just sorry.
I turned around and ran down the mountain, my green hair was flowing behind me and I didn't bother to look back.
i want to drop this book for several reasons.
i've been highly unmotivated, my work isn't good there are better assclass authors out there (yes i'm aware) and here i am? producing low quality crap. I'm so bad... I'm sorry
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