I have homework and I just don't want to do it
And my mom doesn't understand this and she told me I have to and school is important for my future and right now I couldn't care less about my future at all
And I started crying and told her I'll do it and I got out my notebook and did my algebra homework and she left the room and now she acts like it's my fault that I feel shitty and then she came back into my room again and hugged me and I didn't move and now she's sorry but there are two kinds of sorry: actually sorry and pity sorry and she's pity sorry and it doesn't help at all I still don't want to do anything with my life
And I have an essay for tomorrow and a chemistry test on Wednesday (which I don't understand at all)
Also I figured out the kind of relationship o have with Melanie (the girl at school). It's "I really want to punch you in the face and completely cut you out of my life but we're forced to stay in the same desk five days a week so we might as well get along"
Also she's homophobic
I showed her this picture of John Barrowman and she asked "who's the other guy?" and I said "his husband" and she said "eww"
So yeah. I feel like I migh fall asleep cry because I keep thinking of that test but we'll see