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I woke up to Jaedon feet in my face and Kellie leg in my side. They was spread all over my bed sleep. I quietly slipped out of bed and got my things to take a shower. Once my body felt that warm water it felt like heaven. I started to wash up. Once I got to my arms I noticed a bruise. I stared at it for a while as I thought about Que. I wast still shocked he was smoking crack, like what the fuck is wrong with him. He's so careless and act like shit is only affecting him. I'm glad something in his mind clicked because I don't even wanna know what he would of did to me. Today I'm going to meet with my lawyer about filing for divorce. I'm tired of waiting on other people's time, I just want this process to go by as quickly and calmly as possible. It just feels like Que will not let me go and be happy since we are still legally married. But even when we do get a divorce he's still gonna act like this, I know him. He just can't let me go for some reason. And he's to stupid to understand that he's the cause of everything. He fucked up, he broke promises after promises, he neglected my as his wife and showed me his true colors. All I want is what's best for our kids. I'm not doing this to be spiteful I'm doing this because he's becoming so damn reckless and unstable. And now that I see he's doing drugs again I can only imagine what shit she's about to do. I held Jaedon in my lap as Jaeson, Kali and Kellie sat in the chairs beside me. My lawyer sat across the table typing away on his computer.
"Ok, so these are the divorce petition papers. Do you have a clear understanding of what we went over earlier?" He asked me.
"Yes" I said. He slide the papers and pen to me and told me where to sign. I looked at the papers for a while.
"Mrs. Hernandez it's ok. Your not the only one who had second thoughts" he told me. I gave him a small smile.
"Do you think we can reschedule this?" I asked him. He smiled and nodded.
"Sure, just give me a call when your ready" he told me. I nodded and stood up grabbing Jaedon and Jaeson hands as we headed outside. The car ride home was quiet. The boys talked about some damn cartoon and Kellie fell asleep. Kali looked out the window as I drove. She was unset I know she was. When I pulled up I grabbed a sleeping Kellie and we went inside. Kellie eventually woke up and I made them hamburgers and fries. The kids was laughing and talking except for Kali. She stayed quiet picking at her food. I bent down kissing her cheek. She gave me a small smile.
"Come talk to mommy" I told her. She got up following me in the living room. I sat her on my lap. Even tho she was almost as big as me she was still my baby.
"What's wrong? You mad at mommy?" I asked her as I ran my fingers through her hair.
"No" she lowly said.
"Do what's wrong baby?" I asked. She stayed silent for a few seconds.
"I'm scared.." she said.
"Scared of what?" I questioned.
"Daddy...daddy pushed you yesterday. He hurt you. I heard you yelling" she said. My heart felt heavy. I never wanted them to see that side of Que.
"Daddy didn't push me. I fell. He didn't hurt me. Look so I look hurt?" I asked with a smile. She smiled and shook her head no.
"Daddy didn't hurt me. We just had a little disagreement. All mommy and daddy's have disagreements ok" I told her. She nodded.
"Don't be scared if daddy. He didn't mean anything he did ok" I told her. She smiled and nodded her head hugging me.
"Your ok?" I asked her.
"Yes, can I go in the backyard and play" She asked. I nodded kissing her forehead.
"I love Kali" I told her.
"I love you too mommy" she giggled as I tickled her. She ran to the backyard and the other followed her. They played on the their playground and trampoline. I shouldn't be making excuses for Ques behavior but what was I suppose to do, tell her, her daddy on drugs, that he did push me. The door bell rung.
"Keep an eye on your brothers, I told Kali and Kellie as I went to check who was at the door. I looked through the peep hole.
"What?" I said with the door still closed.
"Kels I'm sorry" Que said. I leaned against the closed door.
"Your always sorry. If you was sorry you wouldn't have did it in the first place" I said. He sighed.
"Please Kels. I didn't mean it. Please let me in I miss the kids" he said knowing I would give in if he mentioned the kids.
"Are you high of that shit? Don't lie to me, you dropped the your cigarette pack and I found that shit. How could you Que!" I said. He was quiet for a good minute.
"I'm sorry...you wasn't suppose to see that. I'm gonna get help soon tho. I promise. I'm not high now Kels, I swear. I wouldn't allow myself to be around them like that" He said. I sighed. I put in my alarm code unlocking the door and turned the locks. I slowly opened the door and he stood in front of me with some adidas sweats, red champion hoodie and some brand new white air forces. I moved to the side letting him in.
"They in the backyard" I said dryly looking away from him.
"Thank you" He said lowly walking to the back door. He looked through the back glass doors. He opened it and you heard them scream daddy, all 4 of them ran to him. I didn't wanna be in his presence so I just stayed in the living room. After about 30minutes he came back inside as the kids played outside.
"Can we talk?" He asked. I was steady into my phone playing a game. I giggled.
"Talk about what? How you keep getting violent with me? How you tried to force yourself on me? Oh no wait, what about how your doing crack now! Or no let's talk about how your so fucking selfish and becoming possessive as if I'm your fucking property! We'll never be together Que!! Never!!so just give up and let me be...."I yelled as I began to cry. He just stood there looking dumbfounded.
"You caused all this shit! You're the reason why we could and never will work out as a family. I told you countless times, don't let anything or anyone fuck up our happy home! OUR FAMILY! But you basically said fuck us. You created a storm and cried when it rained." I said shaking my head as I wiped my tears. He stood in front of me with his head down and hands stuffed in his pocket.
"Your right...your always been right. I'm sorry I wasn't a good enough husband for you. And I'm sorry...I'm a sorry ass excuse as I father-"
"Nah it's true. I'm sorry. That's all I can say. I never wanted you to be unhappy Kelsey. But me holding on to you is causing that. I'm sorry, I'll let you be. Tell the kids I'll see them next week" he said as he walked out the door. I tried to call his name but he ignored me. I watched as he got in his car and pulled off. Was I wrong for saying what I said.
Awwww poor Que
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