*please, don't read if you can't handle much, very triggering
i want to die already.
i want to get into heaven,
but i heard it doesn't work like that.
i heard that it should only be natural,
so i guess i want nature to
hurry and run the damn course
because all i ever do is sin
and worsen other problems.
i add more to any issue,
and i'm a disgrace myself...
i heard that children,
my age, in particular
are already forgiven for any sin.
but i want to be gone before
i pass the damn age limit
whatever the fuck it is
because my dreams are fading away
and i'm slowly giving up,
giving in to the darkness.
i don't believe i can make it anymore.
i heard girls don't get many fangirls.
it'd be wrong and sinful anyway
i heard heaven was better than anything.
i know it is,
and i believe i'll be better off.