*just to give the imagine some context, everything happened after tony was diagnosed with anxiety.
Trigger warning:Contains Post traumatic depression,stress eating
11 years old
[name] seemed to be bored in the stark tower.You wanted to die, normally there's always someone around to keep you amused,but today seemed to be the exception.[name] couldn't rely on his famous dad in this type of situation since there was a 100% percent chance that he'll be working in the "Christmas workshop" as you liked to call it.
Pepper was in Paris,and Happy ,the bodyguard ,accompanied your mother.
You really wanted to be with tony,it's been so long since you both bonded, Pepper said to maintain my distance because he might have a panic attack,which was true,he always seemed to be very worried of you.And anytime you would go anywhere near him he pushed you away,and if you insisted he would break down in a panic attack.Everyone told you not to worry because apparently he was improving.which you could tell since he gave up drinking.
After 10 minutes of "mentally arguing whether what you were about to do was okay or not" had passed, your patience was gone,so you walked to your fathers lab (where you had no permission to enter) and started hitting obnoxiously the glass door to catch his attention since you were never given the password.
He finally saw you with a worried expression, very characteristic of him lately,and opened the door to kneel at your level, and say anxiously "Are you okay sweetie? Do you need something? Are you hurt?Hungry?" He might be a very stubborn person, but he had a very soft spot for you, and you always took advantage of that.
The trick was easy, you had to make him feel some sort of blame and after he will be all yours.
The thing is you didn't know how to make him feel blame.You haven't had a real conversation with him in a period of 7 months,which was a bummer.But you weren't really mad about that ,were you?
Being the good actress that you are you started sobbing "Daddy don't you love me anymore?" you asked hoping your master plan will work, your dad only froze, [name] instantly knew she had hit the jackpot or his insecurities.
"Honey why would you even say that?"
He mumbled with tears threatening to come out,Tony was debating if he was a good father and it all seemed to point that he wasn't.
."Because you ignore me, and you no longer play with me, it's like ever since you were diagnosed with anxiety you completely forgot about me,and since you tdon't think about me as a daughter I no longer love you.I HATE YOU" that part was true, you didn't realize that it was no longer the "master plan" but you were actually expressing everything you had kept in for the last 9 months and without even thinking about it you stormed from the lab with real tears in your face.
Tony didn't go after you,he was a wreck,it was a lot for him to handle,so he started drinking, it had been 7 months that he stopped emotionally drinking.But it's been years since he stopped stress eating.
In the meantime you were waiting for him,a part of you thought that he was on his way to apologize and spoil you for the rest of the night, but the other part felt bad that you had to express the way that you did,and that probably he wasn't coming to apologize.
But what was the worst thing that could happen? He was definitely not going to drink,and there was no way on earth he'll stress eat...so with that you decided to sleep unknowing what was happening in the floors below.
Tony drank every alcohol bottle he could find,but he was so stressed there was no way to release all of it...unless he ate.Your mom had locked the food pauntry to prevent his husband from doing something stupid.But he never liked it when he was given orders so he called his assistant and begged for most of the menu of McDonald's.
He was so sad,no matter how much he drank or ate he only wanted you next to him.
You were just about to turn off the light of your nightstand when you heard weird noises coming from downstairs."that can't be good" you muttered under your breath.you decided to investigate, the kitchen was empty, no one was around but you checked the trash can only to see a lot of McDonald's bags which you absolutely detested.You continued examinating the place ,when suddenly you hear glass breaking down in the lab, your first instinct was to follow the sound so you sneaked inside of the lab taking advantage of the open door.Tony didn't see you hide in one of the counters.He kept throwing bottles and saying bad things about himself,you simply couldn't believe it,that the once very confident tony was in front of you.
"She doesn't love you tony,the only pretty thing you've ever had."he kept saying "But how to blame her? poor girl has a monster for a dad that's too scared he might break when playing with her,and besides fat and alcoholic.Just as the headlines used to say that you were going to be a bad dad"he said that while repeatedly shoving French fries into his mouth.
You left and went to your room,and finally before going to sleep you hear your dad talking from the intercom "Hey kiddo I know you are very sad,but can you please come downstairs to the lab" you thought a little bit about the situation and remembered that he had told you to stay away from him when drunk"I'm sorry,but you're very drunk"you declined his invitation quite scared.
A few hours had passed you were now reading a book when suddenly you see your dad peeking his face to the door that you clearly remember locked.
He got near you,,but you were scared of him,so when he was going to pull you for a hug you ran away from him."What's wrong baby?Scared of dada?" He seemed weird and you didn't feel safe so you tried to leave but before you could he grabbed your arm,and with his strong grip he hurted you,which has never happened before.You cried like crazy and when he finally let go of you he started to choke and it later escalated to a panic attack ,you wanted to leave but you couldn't so you stayed watching him dumbfounded.
He stopped, and started crawling all the way where you were standing,he finally hugged you,this time you did not pull away.
He was still crying muttering "I'm sorry" with every sob that came from his mouth.
You hugged his neck,and sniffed his delicious scent, "Chanel Bleu" you thought.
"I'm so sorry, it's just that before you were born, when mommy and me released the news of our pregnancy, everyone said that I was going to be a bad father, and they still do.I never believed the gossip channels but when you told me that I wasn't a good dad it all came to my mind" you were still smelling the fragrance, but managed to hear him."I'm so sorry cub" he said one last time .You pulled away from the hug, grabbed his hand and went all over to your parents giant bedroom where you and Tony cuddled until falling asleep.