Chapter 42

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Just because some of you asked for it, I'm giving you this extra chapter. Also, you gave me my Christmas gift by getting this story to #10 in Fanfiction, so this is from me to you guys. I hope you'll like it, and Merry Christmas everyone xx


It had been a month since mom and Troy found out about me and Louis' relationship. It had also been a month since Louis told me we were better off not together. At first, I had taken it pretty bad. I didn't want to believe it and tried to prove to him that we should stay in a relationship considering our deep feelings for one another. Moreover, Miranda's words had really given me hope. However, after some time, I had started getting used to it.

After Louis' conversation with his dad where he was told that Troy didn't mind him being together with me - just as long as he was happy - you probably would have thought that the first thing he did was to get back together with me again, but that was not what happened. I was more than happy when I found out about Troy's approval even if it took some time for my mom to accept it all. I thought that Louis would change his mind immediately considering he didn't have to worry about his dad hating or disowning him anymore, but no. Things weren't that easy.

I could still remember that day when we went up the stairs to go to sleep and he had asked me to follow him into his room. It was just the day after the incident in the kitchen. I thought that he was going to tell me that he'd changed his mind about everything and wanted to be with me again, but that wasn't the case. Instead, he had told me what his father had said and sure, that made him happy too. But then he had told me that he couldn't let anyone get hurt because of him. If we were to date, he said that he wouldn't be able to live with the thought of having to see me receive hate every day. He also said that he wouldn't want our family to be prejudiced just because of our relationship.

To be honest, I thought it was all just a bunch of bullshit. To me, it didn't matter what anyone else thought about us, just as long as I got to be with him. However, I knew that he had always been the type of guy who cared about everyone else's opinions. He did already when we used to be friends two years ago. He had been so careful. No one could know about our friendship because he was afraid of what their reactions may have been. Same went with when we found out that we were stepbrothers. He made sure that no one knew about it and that I didn't tell anyone because he wanted to keep it a secret. Even if he never admitted it, I was pretty sure he was embarrassed by me. Maybe he had gotten over it now, but who was I to know?

It didn't matter though because I still loved him the same. It was just a little flaw he had. But I mean, who didn't have any flaws? I sure did, and according to me, no one was perfect.

After that night, we hadn't talked very much to each other. We ate dinner together with our family, we sometimes stumbled into each other in the mornings when we were leaving the house and sometimes we even managed to go into the bathroom at the same time in the evenings. However, each time that happened, one of us would just excuse ourselves and leave just as quickly.

I hated it, but after a while of having to live with it, I was starting to get used to it. Don't get me wrong. I still missed him. I missed him so much that I couldn't fall asleep at night. And even if I did, I would always sleep awfully, and I was pretty sure you could see it as well. I had never looked so tired in my entire life as I used to do now. I mean, my mom had even questioned me about it, and that was saying something.

It saddened me that Louis didn't even seem bothered by it all, or he was just very good at hiding it. He usually kept to himself though, going to his room whenever he got home from school and stayed there until it was time to eat dinner. To be honest, it didn't even feel like we lived in the same house anymore. That was how seldom I actually saw him there.

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