I'm Still Here (Mikey x Suicidal!Reader pt. 2)

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Mikey's POV

Days turned into weeks, weeks turned into months.....and every day I watched her. I wanted her to wake up so badly. I was watching her again that day. I ran over every action and event in my head. Those memories that I hadn't cared about were now the most important things in the world to me. I ran over every action she did, picking out the signs she gave. Now that I thought about it.....it was so obvious. She'd been struggling all this time and I hadn't cared enough to ask. Me, being the carefree guy I was, took it all for granted. I felt like a complete idiot. How could we have just looked past it? How could I, her best friend, have looked past it? I remembered so many days with her. I could see it clearly now. Her smiles were forced. Her eyes had darkness in them. The cuts weren't from the cat. I should've known....I should've known

I remembered one day with her. I still can't believe I hadn't noticed how down she'd been.

*Flashback*

"Haha! I win (Y/n)!" I bragged playfully. We were playing a video game together. She laughed. It sounded so happy. 

"Nice one Mikester!" She said. She called me that sometimes. I didn't mind. I thought it was a cool nickname.

"Thanks! Hey, wanna rematch? I bet you can do it too!" I said.

"Nah, thanks for the offer though!" She said. I suddenly thought of something. 

"(Y/n)! Guess what?!" I said.

"What is it this time Mikey." She said with an amused smile. 

"I learned a new skate trick! You wanna go out and I can show you?" I asked. She nodded.

"Heck yeah! Let's go!" She agreed. It was always the best going with her. I had even found another skate board not too long ago for her so we could start skating together! Ever since then it had been so much fun! 

When we got to a place where we could skate. After a little bit I heard her fall and I turned and saw her on the ground. I hurried over.

"Whoa (Y/n) are you okay?" I asked. She nodded with a smile.

"Yep! I'm fine!" She said. She got up and I saw blood stain her shirt on her arm.

"FINE!? (Y/n) you're bleeding!" I said. She looked at her arm and she sighed.

"It's alright. It's just a cut. I'm used to it." She said. I was confused.

"Used to it? Does this happen often or something?" I asked. I saw her face go pale for a split second.

"U-uh n-no! I-it's just my cat. She's not the nicest kitty." She said. I took the bait. 

"Still let's get back. Donnie can patch you up." I said. We walked back to the Lair and I told Donnie what happened. He bandaged her arm and then she said she had to go home. I walked her home since it was still night and I said goodbye once we got there. She waved and I left.

*End Flashback*

'I'm used to it.'......how stupid can one person get? Suddenly Raph came in. He waved at me.

"Hey little brother. You doin' okay?" He asked sitting down next to me. I knew he was trying to help. The three of them were always trying to make me feel better. Raph most of all to my surprise. I'm glad he cares so much, but nothing can really help. It's not like they can magically make her wake up.

"I can't believe I didn't notice." I said. He frowned.

"Hey, don't beat yourself up like that. None of us knew she was going through this. This isn't your fault Mikey." He told me.

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