what i like about you [muke]

day nineteen

today we left for our holiday. 

and so far it's been amazing. It's 2:30 am and i'm sat on the decking watching the ripples on the lake stretched out in front of me as i dangle my toes into it. 

Ashton already started a party tonight and you and me called quits before it even began, which i liked. You came and sat down next to me and asked me if i was okay. 

I don't know if i'm ever okay.

But sometimes with you it makes everything okay for a little bit so i smiled and said i was okay for now. I think you caught on, but i never know. You can read me like an open book but you're so closed off, its not annoying. I sort of admire it, i wish i wasn't so see through.

You wrapped your hand in mine to help me up from the swing chair and we walked to the decking, where i'm still sat. You looked out on the water and we talked, we talked for hours about things we can't tell anyone else. It's as though you're the only person i really trust, and i have never known why. 

I enjoyed tonight. You told me there was something you had wanted to ask me for a long time, but you dropped it and never asked.

I wonder why. 

I always wonder why.