The Random Book

Gone Wrong

I just told my mother Im transgender. Uhm...she's really religious. Yeah.

She basically does not accept it, but she claimed otherwise in every other sentence she said. She said god put me in a female body for a reason. That im not mature enough to decide this. I havent had enough experiences to choose.

What the actual hell. She called us people 'lost souls'. She said if I turn into this I will become depressed. Broken. Crazy.

Im already that. I was before this happened. I didn't tell her this, of course. She also called me lesbian. Lets get something clear, mother. I don't find the idea of fucking a girl even 1% pleasant.

Am I being too harsh? I don't think I am. This Is why I don't believe in any deiti. Because it makes your life complicated. Of course, no one knows that either.

She said I've always gotten what I wanted. Um. No? I haven't actually. She also said she didn't know the reason why I havent said 'I love you' in four years.

Maybe because you tricked me into leaving my dad for the rest of my life and made me mentally mature myself at age seven. Hm??

She basically pulled the conversation away from my problems and put the spotlight about her shitty life. She brought up how she went through termoil her whole life.

Do you not care about your 'daughters' thoughts? She said she would choose what I would be. Im a human being Toby. I should be the one to choose who or what I am. Hell, why dont I just become gender fluid?? Your so focused on why I would even think about changing my gender.

My gender reflects my personality. That's what I think. Is that so wrong? If so, I've been living wrong my whole life. I should just run away shouldnt I?

Well I won't. Why should I? I would just be running from my problems. I dont want to to that. I don't want to be my mother.
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I'll inform you guys if something happens tommorow.

Seeya🌈✌