New Life: Justin Bieber: Sequel to In Love With My Best Friend

Chapter 21 - Journals

It's been exactly one week since Justin texted me. I never answered him. He didn't text me again or post anything again.

And now today I talked to Scooter and he said he would go over to my house and make sure Justin isn't there so I can grab some more clothes. I don't know how long I'll be at this hotel. But I need more of my clothes.

It feels nice to be back in my home again. I see nothing changed. I haven't been home in two long months...

I looked around then ran up the steps. I need to get clothes quickly because I don't know when Justin is coming back. I walked into the guest bedroom where my clothes are in the closet.

Justin and I both have a lot of clothes and shoes so it was easier to have separate closets and this room is directly across the hall from our bed room. But once our relationship got rocky and whenever we weren't together or fighting I would stay in here.

I walked over to the bed and noticed a book on the bed. I got closer and noticed it's the journal that Justin just brought recently. He got it because he was running out of pages in the journal I got him for his 18th birthday two years ago.

What is it doing in here?

I picked it up, but I heisted to open it.

Do I want to read any of it? Maybe that's what it's here for?

I sat on the bed and I took a deep breath before opening it. I flipped through the pages and noticed they all have titles and are not full songs. I went back to the first page and started to read. The title was called 'Bad Day'.

'Bad Day
No I didn't think you would let me
Down that easy, oh no girl
And I didn't think it was over
Until you walked away like it was nothing baby
And that moment was so hard for me to breathe, yeah
Cause you took away the biggest part of me, yeah
Life was so unpredictable, yeah
Never thought a love like yours would leave me all alone, oh no
Didn't waste any time
But you had already made up your mind
No sympathy
Cause I was out of line, oh yeah"

Do I want to keep reading the rest? I sighed and read over the lyrics again. My heart already hurts. If they are all like this, I don't know how I'll react. I flipped the page to read the next one.

I read 'Heartbreaker' at the top making me nervous to read more. But I do anyway. A lot of it is scribbled out.

'heartbreaker
So what I'm really tryna say is
And what I hope you understand
Is despite of all the imperfections of who I am
I still wanna be your man
I know it hasn't been easy for us to talk
With everyone being around but
It's just personal, this just, for me and you
And I want you to know that I still love you
And though the seasons may change
Sometimes love goes from sunshine to rain
I'm under this umbrella and I'm calling your name
And you know I don't wanna lose that, cause I still believe

I still believe in love, I still believe in us
I hope you believe in us, the way I believe in us, you don't see
Cause what you don't see is when we don't speak I really don't sleep, I wanna talk to you
And if I'd have the world in my hands I'd give it all to ya
I wanna know if you feeling, the way that I'm feeling'