Losing Grounds [Davin & Ninaandrea]

Kabanata 5

It was a dumb move. I only made Jax’s hopes high while trying to get Davin’s hopes down. Hindi ko naman gustong paasahin si Jax at wala rin akong ibang ibig sabihin doon sa halik. I only did that to escape and for Davin to stop pestering me. It seemed to work out, anyway, because seeing that, Davin walked away wearing a defeated look in his face.

I had been tossing and turning in my bed and still sleep would not come to me. I did not know which was torture between Davin and Jax’s reaction. Kung iyon bang pag-asa sa mga mata ni Jax o ‘yong pagkabigo na nakita ko kay Davin?

Sinabunutan ko ang sarili sa sobrang inis at saka isinubsob ang mukha sa unan.

Bakit ko ba kasi ginawa ‘yon?

Ano na lang ang iisipin ni Jax ngayon?

Tulad ng nakagawian na, tinawagan ko si Vini nang gabing iyon.

“Mommy!”

“Hello, baby,” tugon ko.

I smirked hearing cute, little grunts on his line.

“I am not a baby anymore na, ‘di ba po? Mommy, I am a big boy na,” muling paalala niya.

Humagilap ako ng unan at saka niyakap iyon, wishing it was him in my arms right now. And what could I do? Kahit pa tumanda na siya o ‘di kaya ay mas tumangkad pa sa akin ay mananatili siyang baby sa paningin ko.

“Fine, big boy,” I agreed so he would already stop with his sulking. “Tell Mommy what happened today.”

“School is fine. I got perfect score in my Science quiz, Mommy,” sagot niya.

“Good job, Vini! That’s my baby boy—I mean, my big boy! Nagmana ka talaga kay Mommy,” sabi ko sabay hagikhik.

“Mommy,” imbes ay tugon niya sa isang malungkot na tinig.

“What is it, Vini?” pag-aalala ko. “May problema ba?”

“Hmm... I wonder about my Daddy. Is he smart like me?” biglang tanong niya.

Napalunok ako nang malalim.

What should I tell him?

“Ah, yes,” sagot ko. Sa katunayan nga niyan ay doktor at professor siya, Vini!

“It must be fun to have a Daddy,” aniya.

“We’ve already talked about this, right?” I said as I nibbled on my lower lip. “Vini, I already told you about your Daddy, right?”