I was sat next to Alice. Her limp body lay on the cold tile floor. When George kicked down the door, I thought she was dead. George ran to her was screaming her name amd sobbing. Josh had fell to floor crying and me, well I stood there. Un able to move, my world flipped upside down.
It been about 3 hours since she blacked out. We called an ambulance and they stitched her wound and said she needs to rest. We tried to move her but we were scared the bleeding would start again.
Shes always been confident, funny and sarcastic. I never, EVER thought she would ever want to, to, to die.
I am holding her hand and whispering sweet nothings into her ear. I just want her to wake up. The paramedics said that she lost quite a bit of blood and her body is still weak. But im worried, she's strong. But how much longer will it be until she does this again?! im scared for, her...
I was lay on my bedroom floor. I was dead, I wanted to be dead. Alice might die, and I don't want her to die thinking I hated her and abused her. I live for her, I love her... She's everything I have ever wanted. I wanted that baby with her so much I forgot how much she meant, and means to me. If she pulls through, im going to propose, because she's the only girl I want, ever...
I only went for a walk. I needed to clear my head. Josh and Alice doing... it together was all that was going through my brain. The girl I love had sex with my best friend. And JJ and Jaymi knew. They never thought that I might of wanted to know she was going to have a baby with him!!
I feel alone. I shouldn't of left her. She thought I ACTUALLY left her, I just needed air. I am just crazily, deeply, passionately and stupidly in love with her. Everything she does is so elegant and perfect. Her eyes, her lips, her personality, her hair, her laugh, her smile, the way she roles around on the floor and her constant hunt for food! I just love her....
If she dies tonight, im going with her. Because a life without her, isn't a life at all!
I was just sat with Olly planning our wedding when I had a phone call. It was Josh explaining what had happened to Alice. Tears streamed down my face as Olly hung up for me. He held me as I cried. I dont know how long we were lay there but it felt like forever. Time slowly passed, but every second was precious, because every second could be Alices last...
this is depressing.
-asjha the "I have no words" writer