Felicity's POV (A few weeks later)
"I can't do this! Not if all you are gonna do is act like you don't care." I do care! This is just stupid to argue about! Quit acting like a bitch! It isn't that serious!" I looked down tears steaming my eyes," It matters and it's important to me... sorry I am just such a bitch" With that I walked off. I hear him say something in the lines of "whatever" but I didn't care if he was mad. I know he doesn't like me to walk off, but I just don't want to argue anymore. The situation was important to me. Why can't he realize that. I mean I know I am not perfect and he screwed up, but still.
If he is just gonna hate on what I ask him to do then he can gladly walk out the door even if I don't want him too... I am never important or good enough for him... Yet he wants to promise me forever. His feelings have me mixed up in the head. One minute he is doing one thing one minute, then another thing the next minute. I put on my headphones and tune into my music. Maybe it would help me stop thinking. My favorite song battle cry comes on first, at least that is a good sign. I sing along,
"I have no heart, just ice and stone..."
Made up of nails and teeth and bone..."
"And I know exactly what I'm for.... "
"To hurt and destroy and nothing more.."
"And if it's true that I was made..."
"I still don't know if I can change.."
"But something has stirred"
"A beast has awakened...Opened a door"
"There's no mistaking...Waging a war"
"It's fighting inside of me"
"So hear my battle cry"
"I'm out for blood to claim what's mine"
"If I am my own worst"
"I am my own worst"
"I am my own worst enemy"
I tried to sing the rest of the song, but ended up in a puddle full of tears. I try to please him, but always end up doing the exact opposite. We argue all the time and I can never understand why we never agree to anything. We would be okay one minute then hating each other the next. It is stressful, but I he is worth fighting for I know. I don't know if he feels the same way, but that is what I have to say about it.
He lies to me way to much over the smallest things. It could be about who he is hanging out with and no not girls. He would lie to me about hanging out with his guy friends because I don't like them. It got bad one night with Alex that I broke up with him.. I cried myself to sleep that night. I didn't know what to do. I couldn't understand why he had to do it.
I knew he regretted it because when I talked to him the next day and he was sad. That night he acted like he didn't care, but he told me that when Alex dropped him off that he cut because he thought he lost me for good. Knowing us we got back together and everything was fine, even if all we do is fight.
When we argue and he tells me things on the lines of him not wanting to be with me, I would tell him to break up with me. He would simply tell me no because he loves me and hates me at the same time. He said the love was more and he wouldn't want this with anyone else. I'm calm now, lets go talk to my baby. I thought to myself as I started heading back to work things out.
She has been gone for so long.. I hope she is okay! It was such a stupid argument. I know what she asked of me meant a lot to her, but it is just stupid. I mean I don't want to have a kid right now. Yes, I would love a little bundle of joy, but now is not the right time. We argue about the smallest things, but this? I didn't know what to think or say. It was an important topic, but I panicked. I did care. I cared to damn much.
Just then I saw Felicity walking towards me and I ran up to her. "I am so sorry baby.. I love you so much. I didn't know what to do with that topic of events." It's okay sweetie.. I understand. Look it's just a faze I am going through. It'll pass." I nodded into her shoulder and hugged her tightly. No matter how much me and her fight and say things we don't mean. I will never let her go, I promised her forever and that is what I am going to give her.
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