The ThickGirl and The Badboy

Chapter 27: Boys. Boys. Boys.

My fatass was eating all the junk that was supposed to be  hidden from me.
But jokes on them, because I knew  all the hiding spots from the  top of my head. (Take that! Mom!)

Instead  of doing my homework like a good girl, I just binged watch Netflix.
I mean I've  been dyinngg to know what happens to Damon and Enzo  in The Vampire Diaries.
(Seriously  the wait is killing me!)

Plus, it's almost  fall so like it fits well.

And I needed this.

A day to myself, where I really don't  give a crap
about anything else.

(Anything else but Bryson...)

Okay no,not even!
I'm supposed to not think about boys right now, and just chill.

But what does my mind do?

Remind me of that idiot.

I mean, do I really think he even cares?

Would he really take me to some stupid dance when he'd  rather be anywhere else? Fucking a hotter chic?

'Great', I thought, 'Now I'm over thinking.'

I let out a big groan of frustration  and smacked myself with a pillow.

I was not gonna let a boy come between me.

My mentality  was much too strong for that crap.

Plus this is my senior year, I shouldn't    get distracted by boys....

Hm, Such a foreign  word to me now that I think  of it.

I don't even think I've  ever had an actual boy friend.

Unless you count the third grade when Jonathan Ruiz asked me out as a joke, and went along with it until the next day and broke up with me.

I mean sure I always get "male attention" but  they don't  actually respect me. They don't  actually care about me.

I've  never had a sweet boy in my life.

I mean I know Bryson isn't  sweet, but theres this little voice in the back of my mind saying that maybe, just maybe he has something to do with my life now you know?

Like a lesson to be learned.

And certainly  not true love of some sappy love story.

Because if it is..I think we both know how that ends.
And with my reputation, I will  Not let that happen.
My pride was simply much too strong.

'Then why am I even thinking about boys, if I SHOULD be paying attention to Damon and Enzo's serial killer actions!'

I swear, being a girl sucks when it comes to boys.

Even a girl with a strong mindset like me.

Because even I want someone in my life, someday.

Maybe not this year or the next, or the next.