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I sat in my living room in silence. Que sat across from me. I looked up at him and he was spaced out looking at the ground.
"So are we gonna talk about it?" I asked him. He ran his hand down his face and chuckled.
"What is there to talk about Kels?" He asked.
"Why? Why you doing this shit?" I asked him. He looked up at me. He struggled his shoulders.
"I guess it numbed all my pain" he said.
"What pain?" I asked. He giggled and stood up.
"The pain of constantly losing someone you love. First my moms, than the nigga I thought was my pops, than-than Jay. And I losed you" he said as he walk outside on my back porch. I followed him. He lit a cigarette and puffed on it. I just watching him puff on it and exhale.
"I know you don't want me smoking this shit but it's the only thing I got to calm my nerves" he said. I stood there in silence.
"Kels... I ain't gonna lie, I put the location on your phone again. I saw you was at the restaurant with that nigga...I ain't gonna lie, my plan was to beat the niggas as. I ended up falling a sleep having the worst nightmare." He said. He shook his head.
"What happened in your dream?" I asked him as I sat in the chair next to him. He bursted our in tears.
"Que...what's wrong?" I asked as I rubbed his back. She shook his head.
"It was horrible. I promise I would never ever do that shit to you." He cried.
"Tell me" I whispered while rubbing his back.
"Kels. It seemed so fucking real. I hit you. Than I ended up forcing sex on you. I raped you man... I'll never do that to you Kels, I swear. That shit just freaked me out. I'm all fucked uo" he said as tears fell from his eyes. I hugged him.
"Que. please leave that shit alone. I don't want nothing to happen to you. We need you. Kali and Kellie need they daddy." I whispered in his ear. He hugged me tighter and buried his face in my neck.
"I'm sorry" he whispered.
"No, I'm sorry. I'm sorry you felt like no one loves you. We love be you. I love you. I love you with all of my heart Que" I whispered to him.
1 week later.....
I woke up in a cold sweat. I've been having these crazy ass dreams on Jay, and my moms. I jumped in the shower letting the hot water hit my back, I just stood there in thought. I having had a hit in a week. I've been doing good with dealing with the urges. I been smoking hella weed to get my mind right. Kels don't let me out of her sight. She probably think I'm gonna fall back into getting high and she's probably right. I've been spending most of my time with her and my girls. They bring out the best in me but some days I have my bad times.
"You ok?" Kels asked taking me out my thoughts. I smiled at her as I turned the water off. She handed me a towel but not before admiring my penis. She saw that I caught her. She turned her head and laughed.
"Like that you see?" I asked her as I walked past her into her room. I've been staying with her for the past week.
"No!!!" She said while playfully rolling her eyes as she left the room. I just laughed and continued getting dressed. I haven't been to the club in almost two weeks. I know Mel and them got everything straight but I just wanna check up on my shit. Kelsey came back in the room with Kellie on her hip. My baby really got so big, it's crazy how time flies.
"You hungry?" Kelsey asked as she sat down next to me. I kissed Kellie as she tried to grab at my beard.
"Ow you always tryna pull daddies beard. Nah I'm not that hungry. Kali still sleep?." I said to her as I stood up grabbing my keys and phone.
"Yea she's still sleep...Where you going?" I asked. He looked up at me as he continued put his phone in his pocket.
"Um I gotta go check on the club" he said as he placed both his hands in his jean pockets.
"Ill go with you" I said as I rushed to get my shoes but he stopped me.
"Nah..stay here with the girls, I'll be back in a little" He said as he kissed my forehead. A tear fell from my eye.
"Why you crying Kels?" He asked.
"Please...don't leave." I begged. He hung his head low and wiped my tears.
"I'm good Kels. I promise. I'm leaving that shit alone...iight" He told me. He bend down and kissed Kallie. He walked down to Kali room and kissed. He walked up to me caresses my cheek.
"I'll be back ok...2 hour. I'll be back in a 2 hours... Ok?" I nodded my head. He pecked my lips. But I deepened it by sticking my tongue in his mouth. His hands roamed my body. He bit down on my bottom lip and pulled away with a smirk. He tried to walked away but I grabbed his arm.
"I love you Quanell" I told him. He smiled. He looked so happy when I said that to him.
"I love you too" he said before walking out the room and out of the house. I watched him get in his car and pull off. What hurts most is that I didn't know this would be my last time seeing him.
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