To Love Jeremy Lockhart ✔️

= Chapter 47 =

Ripping the envelope open, we came across an address — 44th street, Goldfish Paradise.

"It's a shop." Jeremy said.

"Shop?"

"Yup, a goldfish shop. There's one back in Florida too. I remembered getting my first pet Goldfish from that shop." He got into the car with me following after.

Pressing hard on the accerlator, I could feel Jeremy's irritation radiating off him. The speed that he was driving at made me grip my seat tightly, recalling the dreadful memories of that night.

Closing my eyes, I took a deep breath. Instead of feeling better, my memories became more vivid by each passing second.

"SKYLAR SLOW DOWN!" Jonah screamed as he gripped my arm.

"WASN'T I GOOD ENOUGH JO?! WHAT HAVE I EVER DONE!??" I pressed harder on the accerlator, transferring all my anger onto it.

"It's not you Tori, it's me. If only you knew why—" he whimpered with regret.

"THEN MAKE ME UNDERSTAND FOR GOD'S SAKE!!" My knuckles were turning ghost white from the pressure I was applying onto the stirring wheel.

"I CAN'T! SKYLAR SLOW DOWN, WE'RE GONNA—" he yelled but all his words were muted cause all I saw was pitch black...

I didn't know that I was so deep into that night's memory, that I was screaming at Jeremy already.

"SLOW DOWN JEREMY! JUS-JUST PLEASE SLOW DOWN!!" My eyes burned with fury as I looked at Jeremy's shocked eyes. Every time I looked at him, I saw flashes of Jonah's face instead.

I needed to snap out of this.

"Okay okay, I'm slowing down..." he placed his hand on mine, finding a way to calm me down but instead, I snatched my hand away.

"Just stop the car now!" I said in a frustrated hard voice. I needed to get out, the atmosphere in the car was becoming too overwhelming for me.

"What but we–" he stuttered, before I interrupted.

"STOP THE CAR!" I raised my voice, feeling as if my oxygen was cut.

I was getting my panic attacks again. It scared me as well, especially since the last time I got it was a year ago.

"Fine, fine." He said quickly in defeat. The moment the car came to a halt, I shoved the door open, breathing in the fresh Miami air.

Folding my arms across my chest, I looked away from Jeremy's stare that was burning holes into my back.

"What happened in there Sky?" He questioned, walking quickly towards me.

"N-nothing." I mumbled, stepping away from him.

He placed his hands on his hips, and snickered. "Seriously Sky? After what just happened, you're gonna say that that was nothing?!" He tone became harsh, I knew this time I couldn't escape.

He came closer, "I know I said I wouldn't barge into your past, but this time, I'm not gonna back out." His voice held determination.
Finally I turned around.