Padawan Lost ~ AU (1st Installment of the Padawan Series)

Chapter 1

(Ahsoka's point of view)

I cried as I walked down those steps. Most may think I walked away and kept my honor, but I didn't. I cried. I cried harder than I have before. While the tears ran down my cheek I was thinking about the trial. I was thinking about why the Jedi council didn't believe me. Why hadn't my family believed me?

I sat on the steps of the Jedi Temple and took my head in my hands. From there I sobbed. I cried and screamed and yelled. I didn't care who was listening, but I couldn't stop.

I felt a warm hand slide over my shoulder and I saw Plo Koon. I gave a weak smile.

He grabbed both of my hands and helped me to my feet. I wiped a tear from my eye, but another streamed down my face. Plo Koon wrapped himself around me in a tight hug.

"I'm sorry, Master, er um, Jedi. I shouldn't be here still." I pulled away from his embrace and started to walk down the remaining steps.

"Ahsoka stop." There was something in the way he said it that made me come to a halt. Believe me, I wanted to keep walking, but there was a part of my heart that snuck up on me and told me that I shouldn't go.

I turned away. "I already told Anakin-

He cut me off with a quick hand motion. "Stop Little 'Soka," I swallowed hard. "I know you talked to Anakin, but that's not why I'm here."

"Then why are you here? There's no hope." He placed his hands on my shoulders.

"Ahsoka, there is always hope, even when things seem dark. There is always hope. Please, listen to me." I looked at him. His expression was soft.

"Ahsoka, there have always been times where Jedi have become unsure of their paths and destines, or where they lost hope. Then, through the Order, they found hope."

"There is no hope left for me here. There may be hope somewhere else, but hope is inexistent here. I cannot stay here." I let a warm tear slide down my cheek.

"Do you remember when I found you? When your parents had abandoned you? When all hope was lost? Well, hope wasn't lost. I gave you a new life, a life you would have never had if it wasn't for hope."

"I'm sorry Master." I said simply. My voice cracked and my throat was dry. Another tear slid down my cheek, and another.

I took a deep breath, turned away and walked down the steps. "Ahsoka!" He yelled for me.

"Ahsoka please listen!" I turned around once more, against my better judgment. "Ahsoka, if it your choice to leave... the doors will always be open. I will always let you back into the Order, personally."

I smiled. "Thank you Master. You have been a good Master and friend to me, but I must go. I am not coming back."

I turned and walked away. "Ahsoka, please consider it." I shook my head and continued walking. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Plo Koon standing on the steps of the Jedi Temple. His arms were crossed and he looked troubled. Well I was troubled too.