So after that lovely night, I was gifted a therapist. I hated her. SHE WAS EVIL. The piles she gave me made me sick and want to die even more. After a while, I just stopped showing up, and my absent parents didn't care.
I also took Caleb out to the movies. We saw Maleficent. He loved it, I didn't love it as much as he did, but him being happy made me happy. Of course, we got into fights.
Our first, a year or so later, was this girl that I had to work with on a project. She got really touchy, and spread rumors that we were fucking. Caleb didn't believe me when I said that it wasn't true and he started yelling at me about "You're an idiot and I never should have said yes, and I should of just left you on the floor where I found you bleeding out." It hurt. This was at my house and he stormed out.
So I did what he told me. Except this time I didn't bleed out. I took my sleeping pills, and you can see where this is going right?? Please don't make me spell it out. If you need me to:
I t r i e d t o k i l l m y s e l f a g a i n .
So yea... I woke up in the hospital again. Caleb sleeping on me. Same as last time.
I gently woke him up.
"I'm sorry, I'm an idiot. I-I-I shouldn't have said it and I love you so much. Please never again." He rambled into my chest. I stroked his head as he cried. I fell back asleep and when I woke up, I could go home.
Cue the same fucking counselor!!! THE FUCKING SAME ONE!! CRAPPY PILLS AND ALL!
Cue me stop going to my house.
Cue my parents don't care.
Cue me and Caleb going on dates.
That's all for today.
P.S. DreamBoyCaleb I love you so much.
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So this is the real me, not the me my family knows or my friends know. This is the me that has tried to take his life and regrets that it didn't work. I'm sorry my sister that you may read this and I'm sorry that I didn't tell you or mom and dad. O...