‎amour et coeurs ; seventeen otps

3 ; SoonWoo

Title: Star-crossed
❝ I almost had you. ❞

+ quite short
+ inspired by a confession from feu secret files
+ j.wonwoo ; k.soonyoung ; l.jihoon
+ written in 1st person's POV, wonu's the narrator
+ mpreg bruh
+ typographical and grammatical errors might be present.

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We were seventeen that time, young, full of dreams, a bit of come what may and sweet. Inseparable as what they say, that's what we are. We do things together, catching and holding each other's back, telling white lies to save one another and we built our hopes, dreams and aspirations like a tower together. Hand by hand, we planned to walk on our journey and be together for the rest of our lives. Since then, I promised not to let go of your hands, won't let you slip away. Because you, Kwon Soonyoung is the best thing that ever happened in my life.

“Wonwoo, what do you want to be in the near future?”

You asked me this question out of the blue while we are resting under a big tree, with your head laying down on my lap as I stroke your soft black hair.

“Why are you asking me that question in all of a sudden? You're so random y'know, Soonie.”

“Nothing serious, Nonu-yah, I just want to know about it, maybe because I want to start building my future together with you and your dreams. Well, I want to be a teacher. I like kids, imparting my knowledge to those little cuties, who soon are the hope of tomorrow.”

“Hmm, is that so? Then, I want to be an obstetrician gynecologist.”

“Why?”

“Because I want to see genitals–ouch! Stop hitting me Soonie-yah! I'm just kidding! Hey sweetheart, stop it!”

I told you that my mom wants me to be an Ob-gyne, and I'm quite interested in medical field too. And you told me that you were so proud of me.

Haven't I told you that you still look beautiful eventhough you're drenched in sweat and had your face all scrunched up in pain and painted with tears? Because you do. You said that the contraction hurts too much but I kept on saying that it'll be okay, everything's going to be alright. You're trembling too, maybe because of the coldness of the metal as my team perform a caesarean section surgery on you. Don't be scared, sweetheart, you'll gonna be able to see your little angel in a matter of minutes. Just be strong Soonie, don't close your eyes. Please don't. Maybe I told you before that your pregnancy is quite dangerous and risky but you insisted to keep the baby and put up a good fight, so please don't give up.

Then a cry. A high pitch cry of a newborn baby was heard inside this confined room. You finally gave birth to a healthy baby boy. I cut the umbilical cord, and pushed down the neckline of your hospital gown before putting down your baby on your chest just to him a mother's warmth. You look so good together.

“Doctor, my b-baby..”

“He's a baby boy.”

I smiled at you and then your husband suddenly held your hand tightly whispering sweet and comforting words to you. Oh right, we didn't end up together. We broke up years ago and you found someone new. You found Lee Jihoon.

“Oh my gosh, baby you did it, you did it! You did a good fight baby. Look at our little angel, he is so cute just like you. I'm so proud of you Soonyoung, I love the both of you.”

“J-Jihoon...”

I turned around and let my tear fall. You married a good man, Soonyoung. I know you're in good hands and it hurts seeing you happy with someone you really deserve while I'm still living in regrets that I let you go. Jeon Soonyoung sounds good but Lee Soonyoung sounds perfect.
I guess, we're truly star-crossed, we are not bound to be together. I almost had you. Almost. Because I let you go. Because I spent too much time stressing out on my studies, going out with friends getting wasted that you grew tired of my neglection. You didn't demand that much, for you said you understand but still I broke your heart and I'm sorry for that.

“Nonu-yah?”

“Yes, Soonie-yah?”

“Thank you, for always being there for me.”

“No problem, Soonie-yah.”

And I love you.

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I really suck at writing endings. Gonna fail Literature classes bcs of this. Lmao.