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Confusion

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"Come on, Saeron. I'll treat you for today since you've been looking so down lately." Jihoon said for the fifth time. "I'm fine, really. You should be worrying about yourself, I know you have a problem too." I sighed then rolled on my bed. He's been trying to persuade me to go out. But I'm too lazy to say yes and I know he's gonna ask about what happened to me so I'm trying to avoid it.

"Exactly the reason why we should go out and have fun today." He said, I let out a laugh. "You really are persistent, huh?" I shook my head. "Of course, I'll keep bugging you until you say yes." I sighed again. "Alright, but I won't be out for too long, okay?"

"Sure! Your wish is my command!" I giggled at his cheesiness before ending the call. I dropped my hand on the mattress before staring up at the ceiling. I don't want to talk about anything but I know he won't take no for an answer. I still don't know what to do next after last night. I bit my lip.

I still can't get him off my mind. No matter what I do. No matter how much I try to. He's still lingering inside my mind.

Daniel

I shook my head harshly as the scene from last night replayed in my head. My heart started to race at the memories. I kissed him like my life depended on it, like I was addicted on that life support. Damn it, what was I thinking?! I shook my head to shrug away the disturbing thoughts.

I stood up from my bed and went to the bathroom. I took a long shower before dressing myself with comfortable yet presentable clothes. I dried and braided my hair before fixing my face. After that I took my phone and bag before heading outside. Daniel still kept texting me so I answered his message asking what I'm up to for today.

I still can't figure out what to do. Every time I think about it my heart just aches. If I choose Daniel then I'm gonna have to fight my dad. If I choose to to do what my father wants then I'm gonna have to deal with my own regrets and heartaches. Whatever I choose it'll still be tough and heartbreaking. I better choose what my heart wants the most and whenever I think about that, only two words keep popping inside my head.

Kang Daniel

But how? How am I gonna do this? He said he can be my strength. That he will fight with me and that he'll fight for me. I'd be lying of I say my heart didn't flutter at his words. It makes my heart warm just thinking about him. I don't think I'll be able to handle everything if I don't choose him.

My father is the only problem so not now. I don't want to hurt Daniel but I'm still gonna have to think about what I have to do. I still need to clear my mind and wait for the right time to do what I want to do. I need to take it slow. I need to be careful.

The guard immediately approached me the moment I stepped outside. "I'll be meeting with a friend, I won't take long." I said before he could even say a word. "May I ask who that friend is, miss Saeron?" He asked, I almost rolled my eyes.

Dad

"Jihoon. We'll just grab a coffee." I said calmly. "I'll call a driver to drop you off." He told me but I already protested before he could even go. "There's no need, I can handle myself." My brows furrowed as I talked.

"But your father said not to let you go out alone." I knew it. I sighed in defeat before nodding my head. He left after that, calling for a driver. My parents are coming home tonight so I need to go home early before they arrive.

I don't want to leave at first but I know that if I leave, I wouldn't want to go home. I know I can't do that, I can't stay late. I don't want my father asking about what I did the whole day and scold me again for staying out too long.

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